New Me New Name Skaii

Final Night

2011-11-24T17:39:00.003+08:00

Since i am taking a break from revising i might as well blog.

Well i just feel extremely happy that tomorrow i can see my precious again after two and a half weeks. I swear this two and a half weeks was the longest. Maybe cause i didnt get any sleep ever since he enlisted ): but it's not like I wanted to stay awake, it's more of I couldnt sleep due to my chest pains and breathing difficulties.

Well the pain usually comes at night and is on and off. However there was this day that it happened in school a couple of times. Luckily I could bear with it and now make it obvious enough.

I just hope that it will not be there Tmr and Saturday night (:

Oh wells can't wait (: I miss you dear

Revival of my blog

2011-11-24T10:37:00.001+08:00

So I didn't update the blog for a very, very long time! Well been really busy with life.

The reason as to why I am starting to blog all over again is that I felt that it's a way for me to vent out some of the things on my mind, or maybe to share what had happened.

This is also thanks to Bernard and DINKSS (:

Well I shall leave it as it is for now. Will update again later (:

2011-02-11T04:31:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the lack of post. My blog was so tired that it went on hibernation mode. LOL.

Well actually the tired one is me. I have started work at The Coffee Bean Tea Leaf, Raffles Hospital outlet. First day of work was on Tuesday. Excited and all. So this whole week is closing.. I shall head to bed now..

LET ME CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AGAIN

Birthday Wishlist

2011-02-06T17:59:00.009+08:00

Oh look at the date (: Its 6 February, exactly a month away from my birthday. So as promised I would be uploading my wishlist (: Lets go (:

In No Particular Order;

A getaway on a cruise (like a super long duration one would be nice)
A Fine-Dining experience (in-case you don't know its the one where you have to dress up)
iPhone and a Data Plan / Student Plan
Get my DSLR Fixed and more Lens
Polaroid Camera (Fujifilm Instax mini 7s)
A few pairs of VANS Shoes (KEYWORD here is A FEW and my shoe size is 6)
Crumpler Laptop Bag
Crumpler Bag
Bag from your-punani.blogspot.com ( I want this particular model pls)
Baggy Pants ( I'm a 28" guy)
Training shorts from EDIT at Ion Orchard i duno the name of the pants lol
Cheer Shorts
A Cheerleading Inspired Birthday Cake (:
External Hard drive (those huge in memory size)
A super huge memory size card for my DSLR
Loads of balloons on my birthday (: ESPECIALLY GREEN ONES
Take the Singapore Flyer
Take the Cable Car and have a meal on it
Have more Green things (:

This post have been editted thanks to Iryanna for inspiring me about the sizes and all (:

2011-01-31T04:25:00.003+08:00

So today is the last day of the month.

So my review of the first month of 2011 is that it has been better than last years.

So lately I have been having Insomnia, which sucks cause like my body is super tired yet it is not shutting down for maintenance ): So what I have been doing while I'm up at this unearthly hours is to look for things that I want for my birthday. As of now I have seven things in mind. My plan is to have 19 things in my wishlist since its my 19th birthday this year. I really hope to get something out of the 19 that I plan to post on 6 February or earlier. So stay tuned and I will post my 19 wishlist here (:

Speaking of birthday wishes, that reminds me a cousin of mine who asked me whether I would be having any celebration. Well I have never had a proper celebration since like primary school, and the celebration that was planned by DINKSS is not really a proper celebration (though I really appreciate it). It would definitely be nice to have one this year. However I'm not sure whether to have it or not. Like I got so many people to invite; people like TP Blazers, Eng Peeps, Primary School Cliques, DINKSS, Outside Friends and Family. Having just one party would be too little. But having more than one cost alot ): Well what I had in mind was to only have a celebration like when I turn 21, but that cousin of mine say that it would be too long ): maybe I'll do one when I turn 20 and again when I turn 21 haha (:

Ok shall end the post here. Must head to bed if not tomorrow cannot wake up to meet Baby Clover (:

~`Kai`~

New Life of the Old Dead blog

2011-01-29T23:52:00.003+08:00

So guys as what i said MONTHS ago, I would be revamping my blogskin so here it is all done.. I'm very satisfied with it (: yippee I know its very plain and all but who cares its nice... haha... hhmmss So the tittle of the blog goes New Me New Name Skaii... Well it just means New Blog New Name Skaii

Life has been a roller coaster ride, since when it wasn't?, haha. So i finally managed to send my laptop for repair and its working perfectly now (:

Will end this post here for now (: shall update again soon (:

~`Kai`~

2010-11-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

I shall revamp this blog... yes i wil (:

2010-04-27T12:29:00.002+08:00

Ok so its the second day of the second week of my second academic year (isn't it cool? That's the reason why i decided to blog today) So things have been going quite well other then me falling sick ever since like regatta. With fluctuating temperature it really sucks to have to go to school and trainings, though i really enjoy going to school now haha...

So Freshman Orientation camp was like two 3 weeks ago. Sad to say I do not have the feel for FOC, maybe its because i was away for trainings and problems most of the time during FOC whereas for FOW i could stay throughout the whole three days... I really miss ZETTEN!! Seeing my very own freshie really brings back memories of me being a freshie myself last year..

On the last day of FOC, I had a performance at Orchard Tangs for Biotherm. Was a wonderful experience to be doing a performance for some men skincare products. Their color theme for the booth matches our team's color. After the performance we headed down to Tanjong Pagar for dinner to so called 'celebrate'. First time eating at SS. It was really nice, shall go there with S soon..

Two weeks ago was Week 0... M and J came up to me to ask for help with the Cheerleading part of regatta. Well the outcome wasn't really what i expected but still they did great. i'm really proud of them cause they didn't have any background and they only took like 3 days just to learn and memorize the whole routine. Engine won Regatta after 5 years.

Last week was CCA Orientation.. It was also the week where K and T managed Toss To Hands me. K said that i lost weight. Well maybe i did since i fell sick for quite some time.

The week ended with me meeting up with S on sat before meeting the Dip Heads. We went to Fort Canning park walk walk. Then i met the Dip Heads at Yellow Jellow. The next day i met S again for lunch at Woodlands. i then rushed to The Helix bridge for performance. after the whole performance, K did TTH extension and took a picture shall put it up soon...

GTG

2010-01-30T21:53:00.003+08:00

The first two months of 2010 has just ended which means three things to me...

1) The end of Year 1 / The start of Year 2 is approaching soon

2) Nationals is in like 20 days time

3) I'm turning 18

I have to say that having gone through AY09/10, I have definitely noticed a huge change in myself. Well I'm not sure whether its good or not, but all i know is i am no longer the Kai that used to be some time ago. In fact i dun even want to be known as kHai...

moving on

with the start of my new education level, i wanted to try something new and that was why i had joined Temasek Polytechnic Cheerleading team... Blazers... well we have been through loads.. there has been ups and downs... but recently i have had a whole load of downs. not being able to fly properly and also lost touch of my back tuck. well now i know how that P feels when we call him that.

I really got to put my mind into this. I cant afford to disappoint K and Coach A now. we are just 20 freaking days away. I starting to get my engine to warm up, but its not fast enough. Trainings gonna be everyday from now on.. that means i must really sleep early...

OK shall post my birthday wish list tmr i think...

2010-01-20T02:22:00.003+08:00

Maybe I should not have said that 2010 is starting to kick off great in my previous post... I admit it hasn't been... Ok maybe I have high hopes on myself like how much I want to be in committee next year. I just realized that that might not come true due to my own attitude and such.

After I talked to J senior last Tuesday, I did a really deep reflection. I guess it’s true what my friends had said about me changing, emotionally, character, practically everything. I am no longer that someone who used to be thinking about how others feel. I no longer think before I do anything. It really sucks to know that you have change, not for the better, but for the worst. So I told myself that I would change. Someone who does not show his true feelings to the world; a facade that I have yet to build.

So I thought that after that night I have already set my resolutions straight and that I have already decided to be strong. It turns out to be that I expected too much out of myself. I was super disappointed when you guys just.....

This early morning rain really made me decide that this shall be the last. I am really going to put a stronger front. I am going to stand strong on my decision.

A butterfly after a cocoon; a rainbow after a storm; spring after winter; everything has a new form...

2010-01-02T00:20:00.004+08:00

Time really flew past last year.

Frankly, I did not felt the festive excitement of counting down like how i used to just few years back. Maybe its due to the fact that my academic year starts only in April (this assumption was supported by my secondary school cliques).

What made me decided to blog today was that I felt like i abandoned this place for far too long and since its a new year, I decided to have a new start.

If it wasn't for the non-festive season feel, i would have said that it was a good start to 2010. Nevertheless it has started to kick off great. Training has been great ever since coach came back from her vacation. It's really nice to be able to show her how much i have trained but then again i did not improve that much i guess.

Oh wells time to go off... going for a run... cya

2009-10-08T15:37:00.006+08:00

I have totally used up my whole holidays on activities and there was no rest at all, how great is that?

Frankly I can no longer remember what has happened during the whole of the semester break so i shall just elaborate about a few of the recent events...

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So October Orientation was not as bad as what i had expected it to be. Was selected at the very last minute i think cause my name was not in the list of mentors when i reported. I got to know that i would be taking care of class Q951 the day when the freshies report. Together with Arif, Ansari and Zen. Frankly, the instant when Jel said that, i went speechless. at first, i thought that i could not work well with an, neither could i get along with arif and at that moment i dont even know who zen is.

We then went of to short circuit for breakfast. that was when i first talked to Zen. it felt super awkward cause there was no proper introduction given to and from both parties. So the freshies started coming in and all had activities the whole day and soon it was already the end of the first day of the camp. ones the freshies left, i went for training.. injured knee really hurts. but did not show the pain.

The next day was the last day. Frankly i was not expecting the class to be so bonded and quite enthusiastic. they participated and had fun. zen bought for them sweets... it might be small and little but its the thoughts that counts...

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Went to Esplanade to watch Impak Maksima a Malay musical.. was freaking nice...

i really hope our friendship would go back to normal..............

2009-09-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

Its not a surprise if no one ever come and visit my blog, since its like dead for ages. Well Hari Raya this year totally seems dull. However the only interesting thing about this year's Hari Raya is that i went beck to Kampung on the second day. Photos can be found on my facebook account..

So Blazers training has gotten more and more interesting. We had HTHT session on Thursday for about an hour plus. After which, coach came and we started our training proper. We went straight to group stunts.

Yesterday, we had gymnastic session over at Raffles Institution. Started off with front walk over, but i stopped after trying for about half-an-hour due to my lack of flexibility. I then moved on to perfect my cartwheel and round-off before proceeding to learn running cartwheel/round-off. However my progress there was dampened after the arrival of someone. My spirits just hit rock bottom. I spent the remaining time over at the trampoline jumping my ass off. Trained up on my locking and pulling myself up to improve my craddle pop.

2009-09-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hari Raya is finally here but i dont really feel the festivities in me. It seems like a normal day passing by.

SHAG

2009-07-15T20:56:00.003+08:00

Ok once again this blog is like dead... Oh wells what to do i am really busy...

So Asian Youth Games ended with a bang on 10th July, well the appreciation did that is to my view la... Got a free Frasia haha... Lucky i did not buy... But what a 'Dinner' it is... Haha... The only food was potato chips and buns... Rushed over to the airport immediately after that to meet the Zetten people...

What should i do... I really feel empty deep down... I miss you deeply but it seems like there isn't any chance for me to meet you some time soon...

Ok so tomorrow cheerleading will have a performance over at the area in front of the library do come and support k...

2009-07-02T18:37:00.006+08:00

DUE TO SENSITIVITY THE POST HAS BEEN DEMOLISHED!!!

2009-07-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

my life as a poly student has just gotten even more screwed...

2009-06-19T12:23:00.002+08:00

Ok a dead blog needs its revival sometime soon.... Haha

Well been busy with school and term test like two to three weeks ago. Then when term break takes over it felt great. Started my term break with going to Flight Experience with the lovely Sherwin & Samson. Samson led the three of us by flying a plane in a normal day condtions. It was the my turn and what i got was a night flight from changi airport. The experience was woah!! But i think Sherwin would gain more experience cause he got a flight in a typical Singapore tropical thunderstorm.

After our session was planning to catch a movie but unfortunately, there wasn't any time slots that is suitable for us so we went to eat instead before heading off.

Met Kor when they left and had a HTHT before a massive cam-whoring session on City Hall platform.

Friday went off to KL was th bomb...

Came back from KL went straight for Combined Empire Night Cycling to Hendersons Waves and after which went for SYFC trip and followed by training that night...

Had ESC leadership camp yesterday but we zhaoed halfwy cause it was too boring... Went to catch a movie with Shah's treat before going over to sleepover his place. Then later got TPSU sub-com camp an blazers training...

having a dillemma between blazers training or TPSU camp.....

2009-05-25T12:03:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so low now can???

I'm like happy and jumping around, however deep down i really feel empty. i cant seem to understand what is wrong with myself.

anyhooossss....
i just got myself a new haircut!!!! so cool man... but it makes me look like a bloody mat sia... MAT... i cant believe it... haha... CRAP i'm damn high now... haha...

2009-05-18T16:37:00.002+08:00

I feel bad. I know i should not have done it. But as usual it always backfires.

Its like our love-life is about the same.

I'm sad. Why did you have to do it that way? I know i said i moved on but frankly i have not, not even to this day. Tell me how to. You ended my passion for you just like that. Each day i see you now i just cant bear to show my true feelings. The only way to cover this up, well obviously to disturb you.

Poly has been difficult but it also reminds me of all the mac study sessions. I shouldn't be reminded of the past but i cant erase them. Friends never fails to crack jokes and make me forget them. But your scent still lingers.

Thanks for the memories.

2009-05-16T01:06:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the dead blog. I admit it's very dead... What to do damn busy adapting to poly life... Frankly Poly life is cool...

So i would like to take this opportunity to raise up some names that i think worthy to be mentioned.

HAZIRAH: Ok la i gotta admit this ever-so-enthu-and-crazy senior of mine ROCKS MY SMELLY SOCKS, pebbles & stones included.. Haha.. Well i turn to her when i am down and all.. I guess if i were to know here back then in secondary school it'll be worse... Haha... So thanks MAKCIK (eventhough your siblings are not even close to marrying yet)...

PAIGE: I will forever remember her as my ZETTEN GL & Week 0 FA.. Thanks for making me high at times...

WEI GUANG: The only ZETTEN GL that can make me laugh like crap...

BERNITA: Thanks for going crazy with me and being concern....

SUN: For making me have fun today by rejecting me the whole day...

JOSH: For being there for me and understanding me... THANKS BABE

YONO: I DEEPLY appriciate your support you are my motivation... YOU ROCK CAPTAIN..

CAD: Thanks ATC for guiding me along...

SHERWIN: Sorry if i irritate you with that solitare game... Truth hurts and the truth is you sucks( no la. In fact you ROCK).. Thanks dude...

NEW BLOGSKIN ON THE WAY...

2009-04-25T05:25:00.002+08:00

Its like 5.27am and i am still like bloody wide awake... We ended our night acticity like so late that i loved it la... But alot of cock ups happened...

2009-04-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

Its the third day of poly life and i'm loving it... Having lectures together with 3 other classes who takes the same subject as you is so cool. Will be having a course camp this Friday. From what i feel its gonna be another blast. Well i am finding it a little hard to clique with some people, but i am trying my best to fit in. Its hard but i have to do it. having some hard time settling down (as usual) but its ok.

I signed up for TPSU, TPDE, TPLS...

i prefer performing arts lei.....

2009-04-21T23:58:00.001+08:00

Busy With school updates soon.

2009-04-14T14:31:00.002+08:00

Freshman Orientation Camp (FOC) was a blast. The 3 day camp that i attended to kick start my Polytechnic life totally rocks. Zetten emerged 1st for all three days. AISEH

ZETTEN ARE YOU HOT TO GO?

ZETTEN AH WHAT I SAY

PRETTY FACE

ZETTEN WHAT'S YOUR NAME?

KAMSAHAMIDAH

KIMCHIKU

2009-04-01T06:17:00.003+08:00

It's the FIRST day of the FOURTH month of the TWO THOUSAND AND NINTH year.

Happy APRIL FOOL'S DAY to one and all.

Been missing for a week partly due to me being lazy to surf on a computer thats half it's screen has gone all white. YUP! My Mac days are almost ending. Will be collecting my notebook either later today or tomorrow. With that comes my new CAMERA! Its gonna be my first ever cool camera.

2009-03-26T17:10:00.002+08:00

Had a DINKSS outing yesterday. But not everyone turn up. Diy couldnt make it cause she had CCA. Sorry Diy that we had to carry on without you. I hoped you all like the outing that I planned, even though my actual plan was something totally different. But I still think its a blast.

I promised our next outing shall be cool... Just remember to wear something really nice as it'll be a photoshoot....

2009-03-20T01:43:00.002+08:00

Thanks Kira for agreeing to gym with me... I really need someone to train with me...

Khairul feels Lost... He is unsure of whether he should continue with the Life Saving Team... He WISHES too but all the politics going around just turns him off... Furthermore he LOVES Life saving...

I SHALL NOT ENTERTAIN YOU MR. ANONY ...

NEW

2009-03-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

The NEW blogskin is due to the NEW me.

Yes that's right. Khairul has undergone some changes to himself. He is definitely changed into a NEW him. Khairul will stop having any pessimistic thoughts and shall change it into an optimistic one. All these NEW change that Khairul is doing is to suit his 17 year old status. He might not have the body of what a usual 17-year-old guy would but he is trying his best to at least make an impression that he is after all his age.

The NEW Khairul is trying to find a job so that he could go for NEW gym training sessions...

Mon - Life Saving Competition Training (POOL)

Tues - Gym

Wed - Personal Swimming Training (POOL)

Thu - Gym

Fri - Personal Swimming Training (POOL)

Sat - Life Saving Competition Training (BEACH)

Sun - Life Saving AM Training (POOL)

So people look-out for this NEW Khairul...

2009-03-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

School starts in like a months time... I so cannot wait for it la... I am really sick and tired of staying at home especially with the constant nagging from my mum... Tell me how do i endure this crap...

*Side-Track*

Just now at my aunt's, my mum said this....

"Si adik kutip dari bawa blok. Si abang kutip dari tong sampah."

Translated into:

"Sister picked up from void deck. Brother picked up from dustin."

What started this convo was my aunt who said that i look very very tanned. Obviously my mum would take the opportunity to say those things. It might meant as a joke from her but i have feelings too you know. And that was not the first time she said it. I tried my very best to tear there.

*End of Side-Track*

TPSU Freshmen Orientation Camp (FOC) organizing committee has sent out the emails. I so can't wait for it. I am also currently waiting for my time table to be out so that the lifeguard at TP can plan out my schedule to work there.

2009-03-04T20:51:00.002+08:00

I know i have notbeen blogging for some time... Just cant find the time to do so... Well 1 thing for sure is that i am not at my Prime time now... Haix i dont know ah... Haix... Haha... Firstly i would like to say THANKS to the four bloody cool person....

Nordiyanah Bte Samsuddin
Nur Asyqin Bte Abdul Jamal
Natassa Bte Karrim
Nur Iryanna

Hoped i spelt your names correctly. Sorry Iry i don't know how to spell you Dad's name... Thanks guys for the SURPRISE... haha... I deffinitely LOVE you guys ah... Pastamania-ed....

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!

2009-02-26T18:52:00.002+08:00

I have finally enrol myself into TP AMS.. so now i am an official student of TP i guess.. am at my cousin house actually... so now printing the medical forms... shall post more later...

2009-02-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

Should i Be Happy???

I am so confused...

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2009-02-11T15:52:00.002+08:00

I was blog hopping and i read something which made me rather upset now.... Haix... I feel foolish for dreaming big... But what can i do... it's, after all my true feelings towards you... Why can't you just understand that....

On the other hand...

looks like there are a number of DUNMANITES in the same course as me now... dont think i can act normally there....

2009-02-04T13:46:00.001+08:00

You can LIKE almost ANYONE and EVERYONE;

But LOVE is just not the same as LIKE as it takes time to DEVELOP.

2009-01-30T06:44:00.001+08:00

Yes ah... finally the Posting results was smsed by MOE... i got into NYP Biologics & Process Technology...

Firstly i would like to congratulate those who got into the school of their choice like KT who does not even believe that she gotten into Meridian... haha...

i am not at all that happy about this course....

2009-01-29T14:35:00.003+08:00

Ok i am really late in wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year. But its not my fault. I was away in Indonesia celebrating Chinese New Year with my relatives there.

On the whole the trip there was marvelous. Just some sad part which i am so not gonna say it here.

What is Love?

2009-01-18T22:24:00.004+08:00

It Seems like my birthday sia... Just got back from East Coast to have dinner with my family and cousins... Really shock when they actually bought me a present... Was releived to find out that they actually agreed to the courses i chosed... Thought that they would be angry...

Let the pics do the talking...

2009-01-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

Using my sister (ok not really sister la... Cousin but we are very close that we consider each other as siblings i guess...) Laptop at her house now... Submitted my JAE application this morning... Really hope to be able to get into my first choice. Anyway in case you guys are wondering whats my choices are, here it is.....

1) Aviation Management & Services [TP]
2) Biologics & Process Technology [NYP]
3) Chemical & Pharmaceutical Technology [NYP]
4) Marine & Offshore Technology [NP]
5) Nursing [NYP]
6) Optometry [SP]
7) Biotechnology [SP]
8) Biomedical Science / Biomedical Laboratory [NP]
9) Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering [NP]
10) Biomedical Engineering [NP]
11) Maritime Transportation Management [SP]
12) Marine Engineering SP]

I changed my mind at the last minute about applying for the DAE for Diploma In Nautical Studies at SP. So instead of going SP, i went out with Syiqin.

2009-01-08T15:20:00.002+08:00

Woah... I finally reached my 200 post in this blog... Kudos!!!!!!!

i have like 4 days (including today) to do whatever before i start thinking of my future...

YES... GCE "O" Levels Result would be released this coming monday at 2pm...

I must not fret until 11th of January 2009, 10pm... After that time i shall start calling people up and worry together. I know what's done is done... But i just cant help but worry... Most people seem to have already planned where they wanna go.. I am still stuck in this stupid dilemma.. Where should i head to... What course should i take up...

HELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELP

2009-01-05T18:40:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling LOST and BORED...

2009-01-01T14:37:00.003+08:00

FUCK!!!!!!! Do you know there are such things as NOTEBOOKS like the one you are using???? There are such things as WIFI there too you know!!!!!!!

SORRY if i am giving you all that STUPID STRESS... Think it as the way you want it!!!

I NO LONGER CARE ABOUT YOU!!!! THIS IS MY FINAL HI AND MY FIRST BYE!!!

Thanks eh for making me living in regret!!! not needed la eh...

2008-12-31T00:41:00.002+08:00

Ok I know i am being a Jerk and all... But how am i to reply you when i am overseas...

i cant believe our friendship is breaking apart just because i was overseas and cannot reply..

2008-12-29T16:51:00.002+08:00

I Hate This Part Right Here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If YOU are refering to me then i only got a few things to say. I FUCKING do this cause I am TRYING my FUCKING best to FORGET you.

There's a fine line between getting OVER you and FORGET-ing you.

Its not that I dont want give it to you. Its I can't FUCKING leave my house. REMEMBER the POLICE REPORT???????? My mum only allow me to go out if there are anyone older going with me and fetch me from home...

I am sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry... I can't help it.. its getting to me emotionally now ok. YOU have moved on and found that SOMEONE. Without me knowing. I know i am no one to hinder your love life and all.

2008-12-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

I just realised something... How Much i actually miss alot of people...

lets just List names...

1990

Prass

Mars

Xin Hui

1991

Jie Rong

Zerlina

Galvin

Sarah Norlina

Dean

Harry

Chee Hiang

1992

Syiqin

Iryanna

Diyanah

how random can i get????

2008-12-27T22:33:00.003+08:00

Is it just me or does anyone else feel like the Long Holiday after 'O' is like flashing by so fast??? I dont want it to end...

Was blog hopping and saw this...

'The world revolves, and people change.
Its really scary to hear how things have change, although its just a naive and wishful thinking on my part, to think that everything will be like the past, and it will stay that way.'

Quoted by Wang Jie Rong

2008-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

2008-12-24T21:15:00.002+08:00

I Can't believe that today is Christmas eve... haha.. This shows how much i lost track of time... Anyway... I bought for you guys some chocolate that cost me a BOMB... I am not sure if its marvelous... But i could only afford to give each of you a five different flavours a packet each... haix... I am not that ~~RICH~~ you know...

2008-12-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

Tag Reply...

Rachel...

ER i might have forgotten you... but who cares... linked you up already

Fsheena...

FOR your info, I was away on holiday at KL la DEYH...

Dean...

Thanks dean... haha.. the only person who wished me that...

Just came back from KL... was ok... More updates coming up...

2008-12-17T14:54:00.001+08:00

I AM SO SICK........... DAMMIT....... I GOT FOOD POISONING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-17T14:37:00.002+08:00

Watched twilight yesterday. It was super nice la. Wish i am Edward Colins. Haix. So STRONG... So FAST... So IMMORTAL.... So COLD SKINNED... Walked to Fort Canning Park alone after watching Twilight. By the time i reached it was fairly dark.. So sat there and emo a while...

All the memories just flashed through my mind. Questions just kept popping up.

One Thing for SURE is i CANNOT move on no matter what. It is unbearable.

2008-12-14T11:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's BCLS outing was uber fun. Once again this outing falls under one of the few outings where i actually forget all my problems and especially forget about her. Thanks Coach for your help but i now think that i am really really not ready to go into any relationship.

2008-12-12T23:07:00.001+08:00

I guess i have to move on....

heartbroken

2008-12-12T00:52:00.002+08:00

I feel sad. Why am i always the one who have to experience this. I am really like at the most bottom part of my life i guess. Why must all these happen now. All ini just one short period. How am I supposed to endure.

I feel so FOOLISH. Is it because of me? Or is it just my plain dumb luck that i have to loose you? I know i am supposed to be happy for you, I am. But I don't think i can ever face you without crying my heart out.

I know that there is no use crying over spilled milk. Oh well, what can i do but to move on.

Hey Girl... I am happy for you. Congrats on getting yourself attached with a guy.

I SWEAR that I have LOVED you and i still do up to this very moment. It will end tonight. It has to.

Thanks Iry for giving me that chance to appreciate what first love mean - even if it only lasted for 2 days or so.

2008-11-17T10:11:00.000+08:00

TPrawks Day 1

It was weird walking to a poly in your home clothes just like their own student. But everyone was staring at me, maybe it was my shirt. Walked towards the TCC alone as no one i knew was going. from a distant i could hear cheers and all. Felt even more intimidated actually and not more welcomed. When i entered the TCC a group of Blue Hoodies Pack Leaders circled me and asked me to join their group. Well i had already in mind to join Afro Green or Punk Red. So i just said yes to them and continue walking to the registration counter. But it turns out that my earlier registration was not captured in their system, so i had to walk all the way out to re-register. That was when i decided to change to Blue Hoodies. Blue Hoodies 2. But i felt weird. a guy wearing red in a blue group isn't that funny. So i sat down ALONE. Lucky for me one of the Pack Leader came to me and talk. PL Chee Hiang. he was the one who continued to talk to me for the next 3 days. We watched some performances before heading out for icebreakers. We played games such as 'Blow Wind Blow' and many more. We then headed off for our lunch which was macdonalds. After which we went to the school of Informatics & Information Technology. the first part of the school for group 2 was Financial Business Informatics. had the time of my life as i actually know some of the answer. After that was some more games where i won. the most funny thinmg for that day was i was selected twice for representing group 2 in the games. First was charade second was listing game which i almost won myself an MP3.

That concludes the day... which i made wer friends...

2008-11-07T23:35:00.001+08:00

my blog will come back alive after the problem has been resolved.

2008-11-01T16:43:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that O levels is like coming to an end la. I Only have 4, well others left with 2 i think. Monday will be Social Studies, Wednesday Higher Malay, Next Tuesday is Science Multiple Choice Question and Thursday is Pure Biology Multiple Choice Question.

I don't know why i am feeling this way. I somehow feel that i should just give up on you. Should I? Will it be THE wiser Choice? My heart still burns when i think of you. but somehow the flame is not that strong anymore. Maybe its due to the way you treat me. Or maybe its how i treated you. But whatever it is, deep down in my heart, i still do love you. I treasure you. You are everything to me. But why must you change your mind so fast? I am thankful you did give me a second chance but please LET ME HAVE THIS FINAL MOMENT BE SPENT WITH YOU.

OXYMORON

2008-10-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

I am really sad actually. The journey of 4 years of our life is like coming to an end real soon. The final lap begins next thursday. Science practical. I have to push myself harder right now. But what the hell, its really difficult if you are in my shoes.

I might be the happiest teenage in the world right now, but that does not seem to be able to continue for long. my feelings seems to be like an OXYMORON!!!!!!!!!

Guess what i heard my mum saying??

"Because of the brother the sister become like that!! Because of the brother the parents are fighting!! i might as well die its better!!"

How sad does that feel. Ok i know she is like UBER angry with me la... But at least do not make it sound like that la. O levels is like so near at least give me some support not give me more crap to think about. Haix.

To that flower... Thanks for giving me a second chance in trying to pluck you from the garden eventhough there are like numerous thorns out there that also is trying to compete in the same mission. I pledge as of this day that i would not act like how i used to in the past. And i know of a lil secret.

AFTERMATH

2008-08-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

Today, Thursday, 21082008, marks the day where i made improvement in a lot of my failing subjects. Improvements, improvements, thats all i have been telling myself. But whats the point of having improvements if it does not result in a pass. I know that there is that malay saying that goes something like 'little-little, long long become hill {direct translation from ' sikit-sikit, lama lama jadi bukit'}. But how do they know how depressing it is to be getting the same grades each time...

Results according to order of paper reiceved:

Humanities {SS/GEO.E} 13+8+12+3=36/100 -----F9

Additional Mathematics 13+24+12=49/180 ----- F9

Pure Biology 26.5+8.5+21=56/120 -----E8

English 17+13+22+27=52/100 ----C6

so how badly i did... haix...

its all about love

2008-08-19T20:05:00.003+08:00

I had lost my faith in LOVE,

Tonight i believe again.

My Heart was a broken piece,

now i feel WHOLE again.

Today is the first mass checking day. I am really glad that my Humans had improved even if it was still a fail. But i am not quite sure how am i gonna disclose this news to my dad. He for sure would go mad and starts scolding me. But all i care is that i have improved. All i need to do now is to work even harder and who knows maybe i could even get a distinction.

Tomorrow is gonna be our career guidance seminar. We have to come to school in office wear... ooo i cant wait.

2008-08-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

When life seem to be against you, all you feel like doing would be to run away to a place where you can stay there alone with no one around to even talk to you. I know its gonna be boring but at least i will be safe from all those backstabbing and i would not have to be always prepared for heartbreaks or the sadness of losing someone you trusted.

Oh what the hell is wrong with me why am i feeling this way. I just feel so plastic these days. I pretend to look happy and thing like that in school. Am i doing the right thing? How long am i gonna hide my true feelings from the surface man? I guess i am getting better in hiding my true feelings from everyone. But thinking back at the end of every night i feel that i am not only hiding from them but also hurting myself.

Why is it so? Why am i like losing friends after another. Is it because of my own character or is it just because i am not a good friend?

If this continues to go on i dont think i can handle it..

2008-07-22T20:38:00.002+08:00

I know that i have been missing from blogging for like three weeks i think... Two simple reasons...

1. I am UBER busy with O Levels Preparation hence there is no time for me to blog...

2. This blog seems to be ~~DEAD~~... As in like there is no one coming to read my blog...

Haix... What to do...

DINKS Study Outing {AIRPORT}

The outing was, on the whole, an enjoyably crazy one. I made my own way to the airport as i had some EFFING thing to attend to before that. Reached airport Mac at exactly 11 am. Was influenced to eat the McGriddle. Then we shifted to a table which was further inside the Mc itself. There was this particular chinese lad, who was like using the power socket and charging his notebook, he kept giving us that irritated look as we SILENTLY shifted there. Then beside us is a group of chinese girls. Like ten minutes into our study session, the group of girls started to make so much noise. I was like really irritated that i did a lot of things to make them realise that they were making a lot of noise (things like using a pen and hitting the pole making a ting ting ting sound, slamming the table with stack of books). I guess that girls once they start gossiping about everything and anything in the world they would become very oblivious to their surrounding.

Then suddenly...

"Eh are WE like talking very loudly?" (as loudly as usual)

"YES!!!"

Both Me and Syiqin shouted immediately. Yet that did not stop them. instead they got louder. feeling really irritated me and syiqin shifted to the table exactly beside theirs when natassa arrived. After 15 minutes of more nonsense, we decided to migrate to T3 viewing mall.

There we studied and loads of funny things happened. We went to eat and at about 6 plus head back home.

DINKS Study Outing {AIRPORT}

Life Guard

So i had just passed my lifeguard course. Like finally after so long i managed to improve the timing by a lot.

Life Guards

2008-06-24T21:15:00.003+08:00

School has officially started yesterday... Well it was not only my first day of school it was also my sister's first day of school...

Things was extremely hectic yesterday... It was our first ever inaugural for the new school hall... It was utterly nice... But one bad thing is that 4F is right smack in front of the podium... GRRS...

Canteen is uber small...

Today very boring day...

i just got to know that my schience night study programme is like shit...

2.30-4.30 Pure Bio

5.00-7.00 Chem

7.00-9.00 Phys

like shit right... grrs..

Tomorrow is sports day... but cannot participate... grrs...

tats it...

ciaos...

2008-06-13T20:51:00.002+08:00

Camp postponed...

Milo is now out of my reach...

Mo I shall now declare you my special someone and that i love you...

have more days for me to rest... my uber long post was deleted by someone.... so to bad.. yuo all wont noe anything...

2008-05-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

Was really tired these few days... Been having Emo-Sleepless nights (just like Ms. Skunk)... Ok so there is alot to update...

Tuesday (130508)

It was a Paper 1 day for me... Science Paper 1... Followed by an hour plus break then Biology Paper 1... Then went shopping for windows... Haha... Ms. Iguanna Had a major Strike....

CEDRIC DIGORY!!!

Wednesday (140508)

We ended our MYE with Science Practical... Ok so i thought i was late that day and like rushed here and there causing me to forget my stationary... I was like oh my GAY!!! I didn't bring a single thing... Not even a calculator... So thanks Jia Jing for helping me get everything everytime.... Then it was time for us to be QUARANTINE like some idiots... Imagine having 4 classes sitting in one classroom... Haha... Then we need to hand over our electronics by wrapping them in papers... Haha CUTE...

Then during the Practical itself something setupid happen... The invigilator go and open the door... My flame was all over the place... Then i didn't even get the results i am supposed to...

When the practical ended we were again quarantined... haha... But i had Biology SPA assesors filling... While the rest went to eat BK... Met them up again at Library to head to RP... A Lot of Funny things happened... Went round for hours... haha

Strikes & Jokes Of The Day...

~Waited for a bus service that was not in operation at that point of time...

~We could see rainbow...

~Don't worry Ducks have Webbed feet...

~We are hiking mount everest

We got back our papers for the past two days... I can't stand intensive Mother Toungue Programme...

Science (Phyiscs)

Elementary Mathematics

Combined Humans

Higher Malay

Fucking Foul (F)ood

2008-05-10T20:38:00.003+08:00

I am in a tripple F right now... Ok its actually Fucking Foul Mood... I Don't know... Milo has been missing for the past 6 days on friendster... And i just want to have my time alon from you guys... If possible only with MILO ok... please...

ADIK WHERE ARE YOU

2008-05-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

Adik It's been exactly 3 days since you've been gone... Where have you been??? So much for "Don't Worry K bang Milo will always be here for you" you said with such confidence and courage... I have waited for you to come online for the past three days... I sent emails to you but was rejected... I really don't have any other way to contact you dik... I am really worried for you... i got somethings to share... so please... if by anychance you read this post... call my Hand Phone number...

2008-05-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

I don't know why but i just feel like going to the RUNWAY today... Weird can.... Ok my food poisoning is getting worse... just now during physics cant even think due to the excruciating pain... Then after both papers stayed for a while to study chemistry...

WORD of the day:

fuck + hard = FARD

Bad Day / De Ja Vu

2008-05-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

I guess these two songs can roughly descride today...

Elective Geography is ok i guess... Managed to answer 1 part of a question from section A and another from scetion B... Guess i am just screwed...

Biology Paper 2 was a killer... All those things that i could rember well was not tested...

Question of the day:

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS A CHIASMATA...

So Biology ended 5 minutes after Literature and 15 minutes earlier then D&T... So had to Wait for miss Skunk for 15 minutes... Then went to Aiport to mug... But end up we were bonkers...

Statement of the day:

THE BETTER PLACE TO EMO IS STILL THE RUNWAY...

Went to meet Alcie and Jillyn... To _________.... And then went to Swimming... My timming IMPROVED.... then went to eat....

HERE IS THE DE JA VU PART...

Last week Tesha lost her money.... This week Jillyn lost hers.... Now me, Alcie and Jillyn are having food poisoning... sheesh

Third Day Of MYE

2008-05-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

I can't believe that it is now the third day of my Mid Year Exams.. This means that i am also three days closer to the big O... (Ok that was kinda lame...) haha...

Friday (020508)

English Paper 1 & 2...

Was ok i think... Managed to do... In fact i kinda feel good... Then after that went home... haha...

Monday (050508)

Higher Malay Paper 1 & 2...

I did the first section cinfidently... But i think i toatally screwed up my Section 2...

Paper 2 was ok... especially ringkasan and peribahasa...

joke of the day:

a new peribahase was formed...

kail sejengkal umpan seekor, jangan lautan hendak diduga...

seetoopidness.....

Today (060508)...

Social Studies and Elementary Mathematics Paper 1...

SS was ok i guess... Managed to finish up the SBQ but my SEQ was total crapness...

EMATH was better... did everything and happy... then went to study at library with skunk and mr skunk... I WAS FREEZING.... Then left at 4 went to airport to continue mugging with NAWAWI... THANKS DUDE.. made a new friend... going to sleep now and shall wake up at 4 just to study....

ciaos~~

Love Is In The Air... Abangs <3 Adiks

2008-05-02T19:40:00.012+08:00

Adik i love you very much... Let this picture reminds you of our conversation

Been very busy mugging... But managed to find time to post...

Wednesday (300408)...

My first ever Biology 'O' Lvel Science Practical Assesment (SPA) was held today... Was freaking nervous for the whole day... My feet was like really vibrating on its own sia... Was ok i think... But i think i screwed it up... Cause i took an average reading which i doubt i am supposed to... Haix... Then after that had Science (Chemistry) consultations... Was not really myself... Then went home to change for Life Saving class... After that went to eat at KFC... Then Tesha went down after her work... She looked and sounded pissed... Haix whatever... Then went to CS and TM... Saw that NINGNANA... and was humiliated in front of everyone in public... So the whatever... Then went home and chatted with Adik...

Thursday (010508)...

Went to Johore... Cut my hair like OMG... Its uber short now... haha... then went to

Tebrau City (Jusco)...

I bought new clothes from

Sub Zero Jeans

totals up to 300++ ringgits...

Ate at secret recipe...

then met these scotland ladies and helped them out...

Then ate alot today... Reached home that night and i called Adik... very sweet adik... haha i love you too... haha dont worry k... abang will always be here for you even if you were to be caught...

some overdue pics.....

2008-04-29T19:14:00.002+08:00

Why is it so??? Whats wrong with you??? I was trying my best just to help you out in your previous relationship... You then found yourself a new partner... All i wanted to do was to congratulate you... And that is how you say your thanks to me... For your Bloody Selfish Mind of your's info, i do not have the feeling for you anymore... I am lucky that it was just a infatuation...

"was quarreling with a mother fucker in MSN!!"

wow so now i am a mother fucker... seriously thanks alot ok SU... and in case you think that i cant live without you, you are so blooddy wrong... in fact i regretted saying sorry to you the other time...

2008-04-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

Haix... i just feel that i can't wait for O's to be over... it's like the teachers are all beyond my level of patience... how could she call my dad and put words in other people's mouth... i have never and will never go up to her and ask her whether is it possible for me to go for time management counselling thing... HELLO get a life bitch... i so did not do that...

she came to the Chemistry lab on thursday scolding us saying that if we do not hand in her work by five she would teach us without any expression the followinbg week.. firstly all i got to say for you is that do you even have any exprssion on that face???

will i thought bakc and maybe because of the class i should just do it... i did and ended up was uber late for Bio remedial... FUCK...

sheesh

anyway... cant wait for Wednesday, 230408... can go home late... yippee...

2008-04-07T19:12:00.002+08:00

Look guys i am so sorry... I actually wanted to tell all of you at one time just now... But it seems like my last time in your clique was not a complete one... But i just want you all to know that i appreciate every single second i spent with you guys or shall i say girls...

Thanks for the birthday surprise that we had at the void deck... i was really touched by the fact that you all do care...

i am sorry if i have done anythiong wrong to you guys... i know that i have done loads of wrongdoings so plesae forgive me... halalkan makan minum maafkan segala kasar bahasa...

i am uncomfartable with you guys these days... anyway kan tak sopan for a guys going out with a group of girls... what would people think... so ya... i would continue to be friends but not as close as last time ok....

2008-04-06T16:32:00.002+08:00

I have never thought that i would be this hurt... Once again i am gonna thank you for being there when i needed you back then...

To Zejiang... i am so sorry my friend i did not mean to be so harsh... please forgive me and talk to me again...

To the DRINSS i guess this is the goodbye... cause from now on... i shall distant myself from you guys... what would people think right... a guy with a bunch of girls... so ya... thanks for all the good and bad times together... you guys are really appreciated....

2008-04-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

To my friends that does read my blog and does not want it to be so emo i am sorry cause i cant keep that promise...

i wonder why is it that every time i get into a relationship it won't last long.. sad to say i am FUCKING jealous of you guys man... Syiqin what a stable and happy relationship you have... Diy your boyfriend is really sweet to you...

Fuck la... Am i really being over-possessive towards you? What you expect.. i love you alot... Me being sensitive towards trivial matters... what you expect... at least i have a heart and really care for things... about the family thing well hello its not like i have ever experienced it before la ok... its like the first time... i needed you to listen.

in the early days of our relationship you said that you will be here for me to LISTEN OUT... BUT THIS IS THE ENDING???

KNOW YOU ARE PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME??? HELLO I DID ASK YOU WHETHER YOU ARE OK??? BUT ALL YOUR ANSWER WAS YES.. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO READ YOUR mind...

FUCK LA

2008-03-30T20:22:00.002+08:00

I finally found time to update again... I am super exhausted right now... Due to the fact that today is my first day ever working...

Woke up at 5 feeling excited... Got ready and all.. Then walked all the way to the interchange... Met Jilin at the toilet... Kee Chin was late... Then took 29.. I was actually shock you know... Theresha say that the work is at Sentosa... Then this morning when i was on my way there Jilin say taking 29 i was like so shock... So we took 29 and i was very high on the bus...

"Hello may i know your name..."

"Joshua"

"Ok thanks"

[Hang up & call again]

"Hello may i speak to Joshua please"

Lame la can... Haha... Then we alighted at Aloha Chalet... Walked for 1 hour in search of something that goes like SIA beach club or SAF beach club... Called Theresha over and over again... But apparently her phone was switched off... Then tried calling the organizer himself... but once again his phone was switched off... Then finally Theresha called to tell us the exact location which was at Upper Changi Road East... so far lor...

Cabbed our way there... Was given a red event crew shirt... And was only given 5 minutes to change and all that... Then we were designated to our works.. Jilin, Yong Seng, Kee Chin and Derren was down for game stalls... While me, Jia Shun and Jacky was down for the telematch... Very tiring ok...

Will tell more next time... Then when the event is over, we had to hand over the shirts... Like what the fuck can... haha... Then the pay was given went to eat and now here i am... and i am off to sleep le...

2008-03-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am on the verge of killing myself right now... I seriously think that all this while i have been living in a happy peacful family would not turn out like this...

I was asked to leave the house man... how can... haix what ever la....

at least i have you ok...

From me:

"Hey... I just wanted to tell you that you mean alot to me... You have been stuck in my heart since the first time we met... And i cant seem to get you out.. Each day i would be thinking of you and wonder whether you would be doing the same thing to... Believe me my angel that you mean a thousand and one things to me...

YOU ARE THE SECOND THAT MADE UP MY DAY... YOU ARE THE OXYGEN THAT I BREATH EACH DAY... YOU ARE THE SIGHT THA I SEE EACH HOUR...YOU ARE THE SOUND THAT I HEAR EACH MINUTE... YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE TO PROVIDE ME WARMTH... YOU ARE THE RAIN THAT WITNESS MYEMONESS... YOU ARE THE ROOF THAT I SEEK SHELTER IN... YOU ARE THE SHOULDER THAT I CARY AND RELY ON... YOU ARE MY FRIEND THAT I LOVE AND CARE.."

From Someone:

"OOPS DID I.. SRY.. I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU FOREVER. MY LOVE FOR YOU IS AS DEEP AS THE OCEAN AND AS BIG AS THE UNIVERSE.."

"HEY DUN CRY.. IT HURTS ME TO SEE YOU CRY.."

SO SWEET RIGHT...

Well at least i can always look back at this to cheer me up...

2008-03-02T21:53:00.004+08:00

The past two days have been an emo one for me... The fact that my fever is uber high and that its been lingering for the past few days is one of the factor that adds up to the Emoness... Went to school yesterday morning for Chemistry and after which went to Food culture to eat... Like finally... I have been dying to eat at food culture with them... Then thats when i started to turn emo at first... Last minute say tuition at 12.30... I did not even bring my books la can... Then the time then was like 11.45... haix... So went to library to 'study' everyone left and i met Along... Then we went up and i saw Pras... Then Uder came and we head off to Changi Airport T2 to meet Usu... in the bus something setoopid happened between Along and Uder... Haha...

*skip*

Then went to Mac to eat... and sat there till 5 plus just to decide where to go... Then WEnt to Pasir Ris Beach to EMO...

AND THANKS TO THAT SESSION I HAVE BEEN EMOING SINCE THEN CAUSE MY FEVER IS GETTING WORSE AND I WAS SUDDENLY HIT BY THAT FUCKING PANG OF NOSTALGIA.... EMOING RIGHT NOW...

2008-02-28T19:42:00.003+08:00

Haix... What a life... how can i fall sick and get this fucking DANG high fever just a week before my Common Test (CT) and My birthday...

Yesterday in school i already felt unwell... But i had that Podcast Competition meeting... So i attended... Went for Life Guard Course and i was having a very bad headache... i just went into the water and continued the routine... Not telling anyone... Thought that it was just a normal Headache... Then after the first timing, i suddenly felt uber cold, neasous and felt like blacking out... but i still continued to keep quiet cause like almost every week got something happen to me de... i just sat by the pool side in the HELP (Heat Escape Lessening Posture) then my instructor asked whether i was ok... all i could do was to make a sound... Then after that he wanted to do this lap timing thing... Swim 50 meters within 1 minute... For 5 Laps... So i just sat at the side again this time i was shivering like mad... Only God knows how i felt then... it was like uber cold... and my head was spinning... Then when everything ended and when i got home and took my temperature... It was as high as 38.9 degrees celcius... haix

2008-02-24T00:14:00.009+08:00

I finally found time to post pictures that thesha so wanted... Ok i shall not delay the moment and post the pictures first before i carry on with my blog...

2008-02-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

Had a hell of a time yesterday... At least i managed to forget about all my problems...

Had tuition in the morning... Then after which rushed home to change to the proper dressing for weddings... Pink Fox long sleeved shirt and Black sleeveles shirt... Then went out and took MRT all the way to Queenstown... After which flag a cab to the place and it only cost 3 bucks... so ate and waited for the bride... So long sia... and soon i was late for the outing...

Reached Raffles City at 6.45 and i was officially late for 15 minutes... Hey it wasnt my fault ok... My mum asked me to wait to meet my cousin who was geeting married... Like i care like that...

So we first went to this candy shop where Theresha (Tesha) friend bought this lollies which was sour... haha... We then went to Starbucks to wait for Jie Kun and camwhored like fuck there man....

Only after we finished that delicious scone did Jie Kun arrived... And the stupid plan to DAO JK was ruined by Tesha who talk to him the moment he stepped into Starbucks... ok maybe i continue next time bah...

BUSY!!!

2008-02-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

I have been busy this past few days... So i miss blogging...

Ok so Wednesday 060208 was a half day... Planned to come to school early... But end up i overslept... So went to school like the usual time... Not alot of people wore their ethnic costume... What was more depressing was that only ME, DIY, SYIQ, NAT & YAS wore the traditional costume... So the first hour or so was a talk by Mrs NEO our lovely Principal... (ok i got to admit i was not really listening cause i was sitting at the benches outside our class trying my best to complete the weekend-nightstudy homework.) So immediately after her presentation, the twinning classes had their so called party... So i was belo in there and was screaming here and there... Trying my utmost best to make HER stressed... So it all ended and we took pictures.. But i am only going to post it next time... So after that took more pictures with ZU, FAATIN, ZIQ... then went to play piano and took more belo pictures... We only left school at about 1030hrs... To go to the airport... then we ate at airport and took neoprints at TM... then went home...

Reach home and cleaned the house immediately... That was the start of my mission... And up till now only my sis room (which is my old room) is completed... its PINK and i painted everything all by myself... yippee... will upload the pics next time....

FUCK ALL OF YOU

2008-02-06T16:46:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH EVERYBODY??? FUCK MAN... FIRST ITS YOU... CHEATED ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... DIDNT EVEN CARE ABOUT HOW I FELT...SAY ONLY WANT TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... BUT END UP HURT ME AND DONT EVEN CARE THAT I WAS CRYING AT THAT SMALL LITTLE CORNER...

THEN ANOTHER PROBLEM SURFACES... BLOODY FAITH... I AM SO SORRY BUT LOOKS LIKE ITS GONNA BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO RESPECT YOU ANYMORE... SO DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TRY TO ASK ME TO DO SO... OOPS I AM SORRY I FORGOT YOU ARE MY FORM TEACHER AND CCA TEACHER... OH YA AND BY THE WAY STOP GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES... IN FACT DONT EVEN MAKE PROMISES... CUASE I AM FUCKING SURE THAT YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO LIVE UP TO YOUR DUTIES... SAY EVERYONE MUST STAY BACK TO DO CLASS DECO... BUT DID YOU DO YOUR DUTY TO ENSURE THAT EVERYONE TURNS UP... HUH... NO... IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW ONLY A SMALL GROUP OF THEM STAYED BACK AT FIRST... THEY ONLY STAYED TO PLAY TWISTER GAME THEN WENT HOME AFTER KAREN FINSIHED PASTING THAT DISGUSTING CLASS MOTO OF OURS... OK I GOT TO ADMIT THAT I WAS ALSO ONE OF THOSE WHO PLAYED TWISTER... BUT AT LEAST AFTER PLAYING THAT GAME I STAYED ON TO DO THE CLASS DECO...

WHAT BULLSHIT IS THAT HUH? ONLY SCOLDED JY SO LIGHTLY... ITS SUCH AN OBVIOUS SHOW OF FAVOURATISM LA... JOKE WITH JY SO THAT HE SHUT UP.... AND HE WAS LIKE TALKING SO LOUDLY... WHEN ITS ME WHAT YOU DID???? SCOLD ME AND MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT... WHAT WANT TO DEDUCT MARKS FROM MY ORAL AND ESSAY.... GO RIGHT AHEAD I DONT GIVE A DAMN.... YOU HAPPY RIGHT... ANYWAY MY O LEVELS SCRIPT WON'T EVEN BE MARKED BY YOU... IN FACT YOU WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO AMMEND IT... I WAS JUST SITTING THERE MOUTHING MY SCRIPT... NO SQUEK CAME OUT... AND A HELL OF A SCOLDING WAS WHAT I GOT... PLEASE NOT EVERYONE CAN ENDURE YOUR SHIT LA...

BANG THE DOOR SOMEMORE LA... YOU MIGHT AS JOLLY WELL BREAK THAT FUCKING DAMN DOOR... DONT CARE ABOUT MY PHONE... WELL FINE IF I THROW IT OUT OF THE WINDOW DONT YOU DARE SCOLD ME... I SAID THAT CAUSE ITS THE TRUTH... I DID NOT SAY THAT I DIDNT ALLOW YOU TO BRING... I ONLY SAY YOU WILL READ MY SMSES... WHICH IS THE WHOLE FUCKING TRUTH... AND YOU KNOW THAT THE FUCKING TRUTH FUCKING HURTS... THEN COMPLAINT HERE COMPLAINT THERE... AND SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT ME... FUCK YOU LA... WHEN ADK GOT LOST IN T3 WHAT YOU DID??? YOU ONLY BLAME IT ALL ON ME... WHAT WERE YOU DOING HUH??? LOOKING FOR PRESENT AND DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME OR HER... THEN WHEN IO TOLD YOU THAT SHE WAS MISSING YOU CONTINUED TO HOLD THAT BAG... HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT MYSELF THAT SHE WAS MISSING FOUR FIVE SIX... OR DO YOU WANT TO WAIT FOR ME TO SHOUT IT ALL OUT LOUD THAT SHE IS FUCKING MISSING THEN YOU WILL THROW THAT FUCKING BAG DOWN TO SEARCH... WELL HELLO I WAS NOT TRYING TO ACT COOL, OR HANDSOME LA PLEASE.... WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS TRYING TO ACT PRETTY... DOES NOT EVEN WANT TO CARRY THINGS NOW HOW TO SCHOOL... EVEN CARRY ADK ALSO CANNOT.... MAN FUCK YOU ALSO LA...

THANKS ALOT LA... I KNOW YOU DID ALOT TO HELP ME IMPROVE MY GRADES... BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO SCOLD US RIGHT... IF YOU DONT WANT TO TREAT US THEN DONT... IF ITS NOT SINCERE I WOULD DEFFINITELY NOT WANT TO EAT IT LA... ITS HARAM OK... AND I DONT WANT TO EAT HARAM FOOD... IF YOU HATE OUR CLASS SO MUCH THEN YOU MIGHT AS WELL TELL MRS NEO THAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE CLASS... IF I WERE TO DO THAT YOU SAY I AM TRYING TO SMEAR YOUR BLODDY REPUTATION... WELL HELLO IT WAS THE BLOODY TRUTH... SO ADMIT THAT DAMN FACT...

HOW I WISH I COULD JUST DROP DOWN AND DIE NOW.....

I Will Never Respect You Again

2008-02-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

Ok i have decided that i am not gonna blog about my sister getting lost in Changi Airport Terminal 3... Instead i am gonna talk about how i am feeling right now... Stress, Lonely, Hatred... Ah basically everything la... Pissed here and there... The whole day was ruined when she told me that i can't be an emcee for the Musical Extravaganza to be held on 21 March cause i can't cope with my studies... What the hell can... Diy, Nat, Kar, Mich, Ily, Asy, Za, Ald and alot more people can perform... Which would definitely talk a lot more time and yet they are allowed to perform... What about me... Being an emcee is not that time consuming what... You threatened Diy that you would pull her out if she does not come for String training... But i am not even allowed to be the emcee... We should all be treated the same way what... All of us are taking O's at the end of this year TOGETHER...

Things worsen during Maths period when a test - which was supposed to be conducted on 11/2- was held... Mr T was absent today but don't know how Mr W came with test papers and asking us to do... whatever la hor...

Then English i was scolded just for preparing my own Oral speach presentation... Like what the hell... I did not even make a SQUEK... And yet she scolded me as if i was making some sort of a commotion... Then at the back of the class... JY who was talking and laughing so loudly she just brush it off by saying... "people at the back please listen..." over and over again... What is this... such obvious favouritism...

"everyone is suposed to stay back after school to decorate the class..." but end up only ME, Syiq, Diy and Nat was the only one who stayed over to complete the remaining part of the deco...

I HATE YOU AND I WOULD DEFINITELY NOT RESPECT YOU ANYMORE!!!

2008-01-27T16:18:00.001+08:00

Each second that past by reminds me of how much i love you... i know that we can never be happy... but for all i care i will love you forever. dear i will not let you go cause i am afraid to loose you....

2008-01-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

I guess the pressure to attain eight distinction has reached it's zenith today... I don't know why but i just felt like studying and doing nothing else... Not even to eat... Ok I know its not good to skip meals and such but i just want to stay at the table with all my study materials spread out.

Finally i am starting to get the hang of Additional Mathematics. In fact Additional Mathematics is now one of my favourite subjects. I should keep up my good effort and improve more in it...

I managed to edit some of the pictures taken... anyway i am only gonna post some pictures... sorry syiqin but i have to post this...

TAG REPLY:

UDER:

Hei Uder thanks... Ya I miss you guys alots too... But I think the only time we can meet would be after April... Cause only then will our CCA's cease (Mama's idea)... Anyway... Don't shout so loud in school la... I cant sleep at home TAU... Study also cannot... SHEESH

KHAIRIN:

Eh what only you... it's not EMO ok... It's just reminiscing the past... Haha... Thanks for congratulating me... and try your best in Amaths ok... GAMBATTE...

2008-01-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

Ok so i am at Changi Airport right now... With the DINKS clique... Say only want to study... total BULL man... haha.... Ok so i am still happy (or shall i say ELATED) about yesterday's result... haha... seriously la seyh... i cant believe that i can actually achieved that A2 of mine... haha... B3 was the minimum that i was dreaming of man... haha... ok now back to study... blog again at home...

2008-01-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

i have actually achieved what i have dreamed for........

AN A 2 for my malay O level paper.... Distinction for ORAL...... i am sooooo HAPPY........

2008-01-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

well i guess i just have to say that i give about everything. how annoying can this get man. or how worst can the situation get. i just let go of her and now i am regretting every single second of it. whatever la. as long as i can see her smile i guess. but that smile... it hurts. i cant stand it. its like a pepper causing my eyes to tear. all this while i have been waiting and now i am just letting it drift away. man i should seriously move on. but its hard especially when you know this particular person since primary school. P5... that was the first time i ever felt it. but i just ignored it... cause to me that feeling is a joke. months past and i totally forgot about you. then when we got into secondary school i met you again. we got to know each other much better only last year. now the feeling for you is so strong that it could even overthrow someone who i loved so much since P6. whatever it is, i must let go of you. cause i know you won't be happy with me. whats the point of being together if you are sad?

sad and lonely... dang such an emo post. but i guess i should let it all out then to keep it in my heart. MIA has been busy this few days... even with that call away makes her seem to be on another planet. i cant seem to be able to get her to pour all my heart's contents out.

i simply give up and everything!!!

2008-01-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

I can now oficially call myself DEAD. it is like only the third week of school and i can feel the pressure mounting which will kill me soon. alot to update on the blog but i have no time. plane loads of homework to be done. i don't even have time for her. but then who cares about her? as in i am not being evil or anything. but i don't think that there is a future in it. she looks gloomy everyday. so i might as well let go of her and see her happy face shine again. at the same time i am allowing another soul try his luck to pursue her. haix. i am gonna miss you.

ok so i shall just update on what has happened recently that is important that is. ok so where shall i start. ok i think i know.

last week

ok so basically nothing special happened. the only thing that i find important was the poly open houses.

TP - 100108 to 120108

SP - 100108 to 120108

NYP - 100108 to 120108

ok so we went to SP immediately after school on Friday.

but for TP and NYP, they did not ask me along. so i went with USU. and they all thought she is my girl. hello i got better taste. any was very pissed la. cause we only bumped into each other at TP. and they all pretended not to know me. well so the whatever.

then don't know what happened.

Tuesday had PE. Mr S** thought us how to run and stuff. lets just skip that. i injurede my back again. and thanks to kok, who bend my knees and causiong me to fall hurting my back even more. then yesterday swimming push myself uber hard. manage to stay within the time limit but second event got an uber bad leg cramp till i cry. then the most embarassing thing is two of my junior was there. and they saw everything. haha. so now my leg is uber painful.

ok so today had a total of three test...

Additional Mathematics

Elementary Mathematics

Science (Chemistry)

so tired...

ok so tomorrow will be going to NP with Them....

2008-01-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

Heys Peeps.....

Second day of Secondary 4 life just passed......

A happy sec 4 life today... did something which i didn't know i could do... i sent her home...

i just had the feelings something good is gonna happen today.... so after school went to atrium...

for HML but cikgu totally forgot about it..... so ended up she canceled the whole lesson.... so since Iry was there...... i asked her Shyieka, Nat, Raihan, Syerah go bubble tea shop... but end up Nat, me, her and Shyieka only went... but Shyieka went home early... Nat had band... so left me and her.... then she haas to go her tuition center. i followed her since i have tuition near that place... after which i sent her home to her lift..... haha....... was uber happy..........

2008-01-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps....

Today is the second of January which also means that School has officially started. So my sec 4 life has officially started and in fact a day has just gone by. Well as usual me and Diy will always be the crazy ones amongst the five in 4F... We were like Uncivilised Morons... haha...and today Diy had a lot of strike and Syiq has 3 strikes. My someone special seems to be different today..... She is like not talking or anything... It makes me feel bad... haix..

2007-12-27T18:14:00.000+08:00

This is so not me... Can someone please help... I have never ever felt this way... I kept thinking of that special someone and all... This has gone to far...

2007-12-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

I am so sorry for not posting for such an uber long time. My Mum's singnet account has some weird problem and we cant seem to surf the net.

Just now went to Malifax to send the modem to be repaired. But apparently its not the modem that is having problems... It's my mums account haha...

had a christmas party cum anniversary party yesterday won some stuff... Weird stuff in fact...

Ok... i got to say this.... I AM MADLY DEEPLY TRUELY IN LOVE WITH YOU.... No matter what you say i still cant find a new person. You may say that you cannot promise me anything... But you are everything to me... Please take my hand and love my just as much as i love you.....

2007-12-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

I am thinking right now. Of what?

Actually I myself do not know. Maybe I am just reminiscnng of all the events that has happened throughout my whole life.

DANG THIS IS AN EMO POST...

So ya. Haha. 2007. What a wonderful year it has been. Very much like a rollercoster. Early this year was a very rough year. Very sad. But as the months got by friends were there to cheer me up. so the next few paragraphs will be didicated specially for you guys.

Faatin
Faatin thanks for being a belo with me during Additional Mathematics. I will always remember you as my scandal ok. Thinking back at all the stupid things we have done like laughing, SINGING and thinking of stupid stuffs just makes me happy that i have met you. Remember the first time we met? Haha. You were the first ever soul that I talked to. And how did it start? Me picking up a fight with you. But it only lasted for five minutes. And ever since that time, I stick with you throughout the whole camp and we are now classmates for 3 years already. just believe in yourself ok girl. GAMBATTE....

Zara
I was not really close to you haha. But still haha. Thanks for enduring my craziness for that period of time. Especially when i am like so high. Luckily i cannot send the pics that i took on my phone to the computer. If not haha. Thanks for being my scandal. The heart shape thing will always be loved. Haha. Will always remember you as the girl who lent me her phone and is always paranoid. Haha. oh oh....... and also this.........

".......
no you are supposed to be amazed. i think so..."

The next few paragraphs goes out to my lovely friends... DRINKSS....

Diyanah
Hey girl Thanks for being there with me for the past three years in the same class. Will always remember you because of the conflict last year. Haha. And remember ok Prom night must go together. Haha. the Belongers will always be remembered.

Raihan
Ok for your case sorry but i got nothing to say... haha.. Cause i am not that close to you...
Anyway... GAMBATTE.. Be strong ok girl...

Iryanna
Another belo. thanks for lending me your ears when me, Syiqin and Diy were having some squabble back then. and trust me for whatever i say. Cause I am not lying. Will always remember your WOLSness and RULBness... The twinning programme brought us together closer.

2007-12-07T19:53:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating...

Ok so had that

In case you cant see it.. It says Reunion Nite. Which was held at....

Ok... So woke up Uber early on that day and i don't know why. Maybe cause my mum told me that we might be going to the Changi Airport Terminal 3. But i was kinda swearing cause she changed her mind. So then went to meet Hariz tought of lending his jeans. Brought my sister along. Left the house at 7.30 and only returned at 9.45. Was so belo at his void deck. Then went home and had breakfast. After which went back to sleep with my sis. And woke up at 2.30. Had a uber long bath and changed. I can't decide what to wear.

There might not be any difference. But the difference is the bottoms. One is I.P Zone jeans and the other is black jeans. But finally i decided the later one.

The finished look...

Took some pictures of my ticket...

So headed down to Tampines interchange. Walk uber slowly there cause supposed to meet Amirah for her camera. then asked her to accompany me get a ring. Then headed down to school. Was the first to arrive. Haha so took some pictures of the school. Was wondering about when one of the organizers went up to me to ask me to head back to the counter/main gate to register. But its ok. Cause i have nothing to do anyway.

So i reached the counter and they were just setting it up. Putting the doorgift one side. Thats when the I/C noticed that she forgot to bring the Alumni namelist and also the list of table numbers. So she asked my to JAGA the place while she sprinted towards the OM office. she came back and i registered. and i got a pink goodie bag... will post the pic of the goodie bag and it's content next time. so then played this game where we are supposed to like go around the whole school compound to find answers. and guess what i won. haha. so now Brenda owes my a PRIZE..... haha

So then Faiz arrived went around the whole school with him. Then saw this awful sight. A lizard, still alive but stuck inside a packet of what seem to be coffee... haha..

The dinner started at around 6. and i got table number 12 and guess who else was there sitting together with me and Faiz. Eng Meng, Aaron, Dinesh, Reuben, Poh Sia and this other guy who i cant remember his name. sorry.

So the whole event started with Mrs Wong, our fourth principal giving a speech cause she is the so called guess of honour. But through out her whole speech no one listened not even miss Kwek. Typical. Brings back memories of Primary 6 where every morning assembly she would blabber in front of a sea of chattering kids. HAHAHAHA

Then after her talk was an introduction to a game. When we hear this particular song, the whole table must stand up and shake our butt. And my table won the first challenge. Immediately was dinner. These was started with the emcee telling us, guys, to stand behind a girl and we were supposed to pull their chairs and allow them to get their food first. haha so cute right. But table number 12 didn't do anything.

So after all of us got our food, the performances started. To start it was Louis, second runner up for 1 minute of fame. then some dance, contemporary dance by ex TPS also. Followed by a short break where we were allowed to finish our food. Then was this Latin Dance performance and a hip hop dance followed by a singing performance. then got alot of games which i cant really remember. Then was lucky draw. but halfway through Mr Goh, our 1st Principal arrived so the singing performance was repeated. Then the lucky draw continued and it ended with us all singing the school song.... Then i stayed longer to help and clear up all the mess.... pictures will be posted next time......

2007-12-07T17:26:00.000+08:00

Sorry people for not blogging lately. I just don't have the mood to do so. Instead been going out with Mia and Juli just to go to Changi Airport to study. I don't know its just not me to be studying you know. And further more it's Additional Mathematics. Well maybe i should have done this earlier. Haix.

Anyway i am like thinking why cant you give me a chance to prove that i just want to be friends with you... I know that its impossible for us to be together. But i already told you. All i want is a strong friendship. why cant you seriously give me a chance.......

2007-12-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

Was blog hopping and i saw this...

"...
met K bitch at lib. ewwwwww.
anyway, after that met fana.
lol.
nt exactly meet her first. bt i bumped into jazzie.
heh.
then then then, meet fana. we talked.
alottt! hahahaha. she's my bestest bitch. I SWEAR. lol.
..."

like what the fuck can... if you hate me you don't have to do this la... now who is the real bitch around???

2007-12-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

Can i say that i am Uber pissed? Sheesh. What the hell can?

Early in the morning woke me up. Say need to go somewhere for a while. Be back before one. Look at the time now. Its already 16.16. And i already told you i got to go out to study. All you know how to say is that i better give you good results. but what is this you don't even allow me to go out to study.

Then still there say you are talking to the wall. Hello if i didn't answer then you say that then its fine.

fuck you la.