I finally found time to post pictures that thesha so wanted... Ok i shall not delay the moment and post the pictures first before i carry on with my blog...

Had a hell of a time yesterday... At least i managed to forget about all my problems...

Had tuition in the morning... Then after which rushed home to change to the proper dressing for weddings... Pink Fox long sleeved shirt and Black sleeveles shirt... Then went out and took MRT all the way to Queenstown... After which flag a cab to the place and it only cost 3 bucks... so ate and waited for the bride... So long sia... and soon i was late for the outing...

Reached Raffles City at 6.45 and i was officially late for 15 minutes... Hey it wasnt my fault ok... My mum asked me to wait to meet my cousin who was geeting married... Like i care like that...

So we first went to this candy shop where Theresha (Tesha) friend bought this lollies which was sour... haha... We then went to Starbucks to wait for Jie Kun and camwhored like fuck there man....

Only after we finished that delicious scone did Jie Kun arrived... And the stupid plan to DAO JK was ruined by Tesha who talk to him the moment he stepped into Starbucks... ok maybe i continue next time bah...

BUSY!!!

I have been busy this past few days... So i miss blogging...

Ok so Wednesday 060208 was a half day... Planned to come to school early... But end up i overslept... So went to school like the usual time... Not alot of people wore their ethnic costume... What was more depressing was that only ME, DIY, SYIQ, NAT & YAS  wore the traditional costume... So the first hour or so was a talk by Mrs NEO our lovely Principal... (ok i got to admit i was not really listening cause i was sitting at the benches outside our class trying my best to complete the weekend-nightstudy homework.) So immediately after her presentation, the twinning classes had their so called party... So i was belo in there and was screaming here and there... Trying my utmost best to make HER stressed... So it all ended and we took pictures.. But i am only going to post it next time... So after that took more pictures with ZU, FAATIN, ZIQ... then went to play piano and took more belo pictures... We only left school at about 1030hrs... To go to the airport... then we ate at airport and took neoprints at TM... then went home...

Reach home and cleaned the house immediately... That was the start of my mission... And up till now only my sis room (which is my old room) is completed... its PINK and i painted everything all by myself... yippee... will upload the pics next time....

FUCK ALL OF YOU

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH EVERYBODY??? FUCK MAN... FIRST ITS YOU... CHEATED ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... DIDNT EVEN CARE ABOUT HOW I FELT...SAY ONLY WANT TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... BUT END UP HURT ME AND DONT EVEN CARE THAT I WAS CRYING AT THAT SMALL LITTLE CORNER...

THEN ANOTHER PROBLEM SURFACES... BLOODY FAITH... I AM SO SORRY BUT LOOKS LIKE ITS GONNA BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO RESPECT YOU ANYMORE... SO DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TRY TO ASK ME TO DO SO...  OOPS I AM SORRY I FORGOT YOU ARE MY FORM TEACHER AND CCA TEACHER... OH YA AND BY THE WAY STOP GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES... IN FACT DONT EVEN MAKE PROMISES... CUASE I AM FUCKING SURE THAT YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO LIVE UP TO YOUR DUTIES... SAY EVERYONE MUST STAY BACK TO DO CLASS DECO... BUT DID YOU DO YOUR DUTY TO ENSURE THAT EVERYONE TURNS UP... HUH... NO... IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW ONLY A SMALL GROUP OF THEM STAYED BACK AT FIRST... THEY ONLY STAYED TO PLAY TWISTER GAME THEN WENT HOME AFTER KAREN FINSIHED PASTING THAT DISGUSTING CLASS MOTO OF OURS... OK I GOT TO ADMIT THAT I WAS ALSO ONE OF THOSE WHO PLAYED TWISTER... BUT AT LEAST AFTER PLAYING THAT GAME I STAYED ON TO DO THE CLASS DECO...

WHAT BULLSHIT IS THAT HUH? ONLY SCOLDED JY SO LIGHTLY... ITS SUCH AN OBVIOUS SHOW OF FAVOURATISM LA... JOKE WITH JY SO THAT HE SHUT UP.... AND HE WAS LIKE TALKING SO LOUDLY... WHEN ITS ME WHAT YOU DID???? SCOLD ME AND MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT... WHAT WANT TO DEDUCT MARKS FROM MY ORAL AND ESSAY.... GO RIGHT AHEAD I DONT GIVE A DAMN.... YOU HAPPY RIGHT... ANYWAY MY O LEVELS SCRIPT WON'T EVEN BE MARKED BY YOU... IN FACT YOU WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO AMMEND IT... I WAS JUST SITTING THERE MOUTHING MY SCRIPT... NO SQUEK CAME OUT... AND A HELL OF A SCOLDING WAS WHAT I GOT... PLEASE NOT EVERYONE CAN ENDURE YOUR SHIT LA...

BANG THE DOOR SOMEMORE LA... YOU MIGHT AS JOLLY WELL BREAK THAT FUCKING DAMN DOOR... DONT CARE ABOUT MY PHONE... WELL FINE IF I THROW IT OUT OF THE WINDOW DONT YOU DARE SCOLD ME... I SAID THAT CAUSE ITS THE TRUTH... I DID NOT SAY THAT I DIDNT ALLOW YOU TO BRING... I ONLY SAY YOU WILL READ MY SMSES... WHICH IS THE WHOLE FUCKING TRUTH... AND YOU KNOW THAT THE FUCKING TRUTH FUCKING HURTS... THEN COMPLAINT HERE COMPLAINT THERE... AND SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT ME... FUCK YOU LA... WHEN ADK GOT LOST IN T3 WHAT YOU DID??? YOU ONLY BLAME IT ALL ON ME... WHAT WERE YOU DOING HUH??? LOOKING FOR PRESENT AND DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME OR HER... THEN WHEN IO TOLD YOU THAT SHE WAS MISSING YOU CONTINUED TO HOLD THAT BAG... HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT MYSELF THAT SHE WAS MISSING FOUR FIVE SIX... OR DO YOU WANT TO WAIT FOR ME TO SHOUT IT ALL OUT LOUD THAT SHE IS FUCKING MISSING THEN YOU WILL THROW THAT FUCKING BAG DOWN TO SEARCH... WELL HELLO I WAS NOT TRYING TO ACT COOL, OR HANDSOME LA PLEASE.... WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS TRYING TO ACT PRETTY... DOES NOT EVEN WANT TO CARRY THINGS NOW HOW TO SCHOOL... EVEN CARRY ADK ALSO CANNOT.... MAN FUCK YOU ALSO LA...

THANKS ALOT LA... I KNOW YOU DID ALOT TO HELP ME IMPROVE MY GRADES... BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO SCOLD US RIGHT... IF YOU DONT WANT TO TREAT US THEN DONT... IF ITS NOT SINCERE I WOULD DEFFINITELY NOT WANT TO EAT IT LA... ITS HARAM OK... AND I DONT WANT TO EAT HARAM FOOD... IF YOU HATE OUR CLASS SO MUCH THEN YOU MIGHT AS WELL TELL MRS NEO THAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE CLASS... IF I WERE TO DO THAT YOU SAY I AM TRYING TO SMEAR YOUR BLODDY REPUTATION... WELL HELLO IT WAS THE BLOODY TRUTH... SO ADMIT THAT DAMN FACT...

HOW I WISH I COULD JUST DROP DOWN AND DIE NOW.....

I Will Never Respect You Again

Ok i have decided that i am not gonna blog about my sister getting lost in Changi Airport Terminal 3... Instead i am gonna talk about how i am feeling right now... Stress, Lonely, Hatred... Ah basically everything la... Pissed here and there... The whole day was ruined when she told me that i can't be an emcee for the Musical Extravaganza to be held on 21 March cause i can't cope with my studies... What the hell can... Diy, Nat, Kar, Mich, Ily, Asy, Za, Ald and alot more people can perform... Which would definitely talk a lot more time and yet they are allowed to perform... What about me... Being an emcee is not that time consuming what... You threatened Diy that you would pull her out if she does not come for String training... But i am not even allowed to be the emcee... We should all be treated the same way what... All of us are taking O's at the end of this year TOGETHER...

Things worsen during Maths period when a test - which was supposed to be conducted on 11/2- was held... Mr T was absent today but don't know how Mr W came with test papers and asking us to do... whatever la hor... 

Then English i was scolded just for preparing my own Oral speach presentation... Like what the hell... I did not even make a SQUEK... And yet she scolded me as if i was making some sort of a commotion... Then at the back of the class... JY who was talking and laughing so loudly she just brush it off by saying... "people at the back please listen..." over and over again... What is this... such obvious favouritism...

"everyone is suposed to stay back after school to decorate the class..." but end up only ME, Syiq, Diy and Nat was the only one who stayed over to complete the remaining part of the deco...

I HATE YOU AND I WOULD DEFINITELY NOT RESPECT YOU ANYMORE!!!

 Each second that past by reminds me of how much i love you... i know that we can never be happy... but for all i care i will love you forever. dear i will not let you go cause i am afraid to loose you....

I guess the pressure to attain eight distinction has reached it's zenith today... I don't know why but i just felt like studying and doing nothing else... Not even to eat... Ok I know its not good to skip meals and such but i just want to stay at the table with all my study materials spread out.

Finally i am starting to get the hang of Additional Mathematics. In fact Additional Mathematics is now one of my favourite subjects. I should keep up my good effort and improve more in it...

I managed to edit some of the pictures taken... anyway i am only gonna post some pictures... sorry syiqin but i have to post this...

TAG REPLY:

UDER:

Hei Uder thanks... Ya I miss you guys alots too... But I think the only time we can meet would be after April... Cause only then will our CCA's cease (Mama's idea)... Anyway... Don't shout so loud in school la... I cant sleep at home TAU... Study also cannot... SHEESH

KHAIRIN:

Eh what only you... it's not EMO ok... It's just reminiscing the past... Haha... Thanks for congratulating me... and try your best in Amaths ok... GAMBATTE...

Ok so i am at Changi Airport right now... With the DINKS clique... Say only want to study... total BULL man... haha.... Ok so i am still happy (or shall i say ELATED) about yesterday's result... haha... seriously la seyh... i cant believe that i can actually achieved that A2 of mine... haha... B3 was the minimum that i was dreaming of man... haha... ok now back to study... blog again at home...

i have actually achieved what i have dreamed for........

AN A 2 for my malay O level paper.... Distinction for ORAL...... i am sooooo HAPPY........

well i guess i just have to say that i give about everything. how annoying can this get man. or how worst can the situation get. i just let go of her and now i am regretting every single second of it. whatever la. as long as i can see her smile i guess. but that smile... it hurts. i cant stand it. its like a pepper causing my eyes to tear. all this while i have been waiting and now i am just letting it drift away. man i should seriously move on. but its hard especially when you know this particular person since primary school. P5... that was the first time i ever felt it. but i just ignored it... cause to me that feeling is a joke. months past and i totally forgot about you. then when we got into secondary school i met you again. we got to know each other much better only last year. now the feeling for you is so strong that it could even overthrow someone who i loved so much since P6. whatever it is, i must let go of you. cause i know you won't be happy with me. whats the point of being together if you are sad?

sad and lonely... dang such an emo post. but i guess i should let it all out then to keep it in my heart. MIA has been busy this few days... even with that call away makes her seem to be on another planet. i cant seem to be able to get her to pour all my heart's contents out.

i simply give up and everything!!!

I can now oficially call myself DEAD. it is like only the third week of school and i can feel the pressure mounting which will kill me soon. alot to update on the blog but i have no time. plane loads of homework to be done. i don't even have time for her. but then who cares about her? as in i am not being evil or anything. but i don't think that there is a future in it. she looks gloomy everyday. so i might as well let go of her and see her happy face shine again. at the same time i am allowing another soul try his luck to pursue her. haix. i am gonna miss you.

ok so i shall just update on what has happened recently that is important that is. ok so where shall i start. ok i think i know.

last week

ok so basically nothing special happened. the only thing that i find important was the poly open houses.

TP - 100108 to 120108

SP - 100108 to 120108

NYP - 100108 to 120108

ok so we went to SP immediately after school on Friday.

but for TP and NYP, they did not ask me along. so i went with USU. and they all thought she is my girl. hello i got better taste. any was very pissed la. cause we only bumped into each other at TP. and they all pretended not to know me. well so the whatever.

then don't know what happened.

Tuesday had PE. Mr S** thought us how to run and stuff. lets just skip that. i injurede my back again. and thanks to kok, who bend my knees and causiong me to fall hurting my back even more. then yesterday swimming push myself uber hard. manage to stay within the time limit but second event got an uber bad leg cramp till i cry. then the most embarassing thing is two of my junior was there. and they saw everything. haha. so now my leg is uber painful.

ok so today had a total of three test...

Additional Mathematics

Elementary Mathematics

Science (Chemistry)

so tired...

ok so tomorrow will be going to NP with Them....

Heys Peeps.....

Second day of Secondary 4 life just passed......

A happy sec 4 life today... did something which i didn't know i could do... i sent her home...

i just had the feelings something good is gonna happen today.... so after school went to atrium...

for HML but cikgu totally forgot about it..... so ended up she canceled the whole lesson.... so since Iry was there...... i asked her Shyieka, Nat, Raihan, Syerah go bubble tea shop... but end up Nat, me, her and Shyieka only went... but Shyieka went home early... Nat had band... so left me and her.... then she haas to go her tuition center. i followed her since i have tuition near that place... after which i sent her home to her lift..... haha....... was uber happy..........

Hey peeps....

Today is the second of January which also means that School has officially started. So my sec 4 life has officially started and in fact a day has just gone by. Well as usual me and Diy will always be the crazy ones amongst the five in 4F... We were like Uncivilised Morons... haha...and today Diy had a lot of strike and Syiq has 3 strikes. My someone special seems to be different today..... She is like not talking or anything... It makes me feel bad... haix..