Wanted to blog but cant control my emotions... I guess my blog will be where my emotions flow out to

Final Day

Today marks the very last day of lessons for AY12/13 April Semester. Ended the day with Business Continuity Management presentation and Service Quality Management quiz.

On a much more sad note, I really hate the way I was treated today.

You said you send the freaking E-mail at 'later at night'. What time did you freaking sent it? 5 plus in the morning. Worst still you made it sound as if its my fault. OK never mind, I accept the blame, but explain why you say meet at 830 in school and you guys only came at 9. Worst still you make it sound as if I dont understand simple English. Another point where I can brush off.

BUT YOU FREAKING BITCHED ABOUT ME IN MANDARIN!!! I CAN FUCKING UNDERSTAND EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAID

Helloes People

So I am back with more things to post here. Well its not really 'Things' but more of me penning down what is going through in my head.

I have been telling people 'Oh, I'm doing great' 'I'm alright' 'Things going fine'. Guess I'm just saying these to cover up everything. I am too used to having these huge facade protecting me from the reality. Like seriously find me someone who has been removed from school and comes back kicking and like be the most popular kid in town and i would change my mindset.

Not sure if I have shared this but really I feel like giving up now. 3 semesters left is really too much for me to handle, with very demoralising people around me. No matter what in their eyes I am not a good student. Having to take modules with other courses, other cohort....

Work wise is no where better. I used to think that have 'Stepmother' as a Manager is bad enough. I take those words back. I hate how this 'TELEBABI' is treating us. How can he just any-o-how give me days when i didn't even give him any. He even have the cheek to scold me for not showing up. like dude i have lessons to go you don't just fucking assume that your Part-Timer can mould to your schedule. I'm a Part-Timer for a fucking reason.

With all that said I am very sure that you guys are thinking 'oh a hard day at work or school would be fine once you reach home'. Not saying that my house is hell but lets just say that its not a place to be in when you have had enough already.

Enough of me ranting for now...

yes i just cried

New Mac

Well as usual i abandoned my blog for a very long time. But back to Blogging i will (:

Anyway this post is special as it is not only a post after so long but also my first ever blog post on my new Macbook (:

Finally my dreams came true, I finally own a Macbook. Got it second hand for 1.2K.

Anyway April Semester is about to come to an end and I am like busy with mains but i will deffinitely find time to blog.

to end off this joyous post;

Really long time since I last blogged. Makes me wonder whether there are still people who comes and read this space. Haha oh wells. Just wanna vent out but not gonna do so hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaha ok I'm mad

Red day (:

I feel that my postings here are purely based on my mood to blog. It's like a seasonal thing. Ok maybe it's more of laziness that is preventing me from updating haha.

Anyways today marks the end of this semester. I'm feeling rather sad and emo-ish due to the fact that my original batch of classmates are unofficially graduated, and I am still here stuck in school for good knows how long ):

But on a brighter note, I found myself a new clique, which I hope would stay with me till they graduate. They planned to have a post-Valentine day lunch today an thy invited me along (: so I'm all dressed in red hahaha (: weeehhhhheeee

Ok now time for me to get ready for that fucked up lecturer class ):

Final Night

Since i am taking a break from revising i might as well blog.

Well i just feel extremely happy that tomorrow i can see my precious again after two and a half weeks. I swear this two and a half weeks was the longest. Maybe cause i didnt get any sleep ever since he enlisted ): but it's not like I wanted to stay awake, it's more of I couldnt sleep due to my chest pains and breathing difficulties.

Well the pain usually comes at night and is on and off. However there was this day that it happened in school a couple of times. Luckily I could bear with it and now make it obvious enough.

I just hope that it will not be there Tmr and Saturday night (:

Oh wells can't wait (: I miss you dear

Revival of my blog

So I didn't update the blog for a very, very long time! Well been really busy with life.

The reason as to why I am starting to blog all over again is that I felt that it's a way for me to vent out some of the things on my mind, or maybe to share what had happened.

This is also thanks to Bernard and DINKSS (:

Well I shall leave it as it is for now. Will update again later (:

Sorry for the lack of post. My blog was so tired that it went on hibernation mode. LOL.

Well actually the tired one is me. I have started work at The Coffee Bean Tea Leaf, Raffles Hospital outlet. First day of work was on Tuesday. Excited and all. So this whole week is closing.. I shall head to bed now..

LET ME CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AGAIN

Birthday Wishlist

Oh look at the date (: Its 6 February, exactly a month away from my birthday. So as promised I would be uploading my wishlist (: Lets go (:

In No Particular Order;

1. A getaway on a cruise (like a super long duration one would be nice)
2. A Fine-Dining experience (in-case you don't know its the one where you have to dress up)
3. iPhone and a Data Plan / Student Plan
4. Get my DSLR Fixed and more Lens
5. Polaroid Camera (Fujifilm Instax mini 7s)
   
   
   
6. A few pairs of VANS Shoes (KEYWORD here is A FEW and my shoe size is 6)
   
   
   
7. Crumpler Laptop Bag
   
8. Crumpler Bag
   
   
   
9. Bag from your-punani.blogspot.com ( I want this particular model pls)
   
   
   
10. Baggy Pants ( I'm a 28" guy)
    
11. Training shorts from EDIT at Ion Orchard i duno the name of the pants lol
    
12. Cheer Shorts
    
13. A Cheerleading Inspired Birthday Cake (:
    
14. External Hard drive (those huge in memory size)
    
15. A super huge memory size card for my DSLR
    
16. Loads of balloons on my birthday (: ESPECIALLY GREEN ONES
    
17. Take the Singapore Flyer
    
18. Take the Cable Car and have a meal on it
    
19. Have more Green things (:

This post have been editted thanks to Iryanna for inspiring me about the sizes and all (:

So today is the last day of the month.

So my review of the first month of 2011 is that it has been better than last years.

So lately I have been having Insomnia, which sucks cause like my body is super tired yet it is not shutting down for maintenance ): So what I have been doing while I'm up at this unearthly hours is to look for things that I want for my birthday. As of now I have seven things in mind. My plan is to have 19 things in my wishlist since its my 19th birthday this year. I really hope to get something out of the 19 that I plan to post on 6 February or earlier. So stay tuned and I will post my 19 wishlist here (:

Speaking of birthday wishes, that reminds me a cousin of mine who asked me whether I would be having any celebration. Well I have never had a proper celebration since like primary school, and the celebration that was planned by DINKSS is not really a proper celebration (though I really appreciate it). It would definitely be nice to have one this year. However I'm not sure whether to have it or not. Like I got so many people to invite; people like TP Blazers, Eng Peeps, Primary School Cliques, DINKSS, Outside Friends and Family. Having just one party would be too little. But having more than one cost alot ): Well what I had in mind was to only have a celebration like when I turn 21, but that cousin of mine say that it would be too long ): maybe I'll do one when I turn 20 and again when I turn 21 haha (:

Ok shall end the post here. Must head to bed if not tomorrow cannot wake up to meet Baby Clover (:

~`Kai`~

New Life of the Old Dead blog

So guys as what i said MONTHS ago, I would be revamping my blogskin so here it is all done.. I'm very satisfied with it (: yippee I know its very plain and all but who cares its nice... haha... hhmmss So the tittle of the blog goes New Me New Name Skaii... Well it just means New Blog New Name Skaii

Life has been a roller coaster ride, since when it wasn't?, haha. So i finally managed to send my laptop for repair and its working perfectly now (:

Will end this post here for now (: shall update again soon (:

~`Kai`~

I shall revamp this blog... yes i wil (:

Ok so its the second day of the second week of my second academic year (isn't it cool? That's the reason why i decided to blog today) So things have been going quite well other then me falling sick ever since like regatta. With fluctuating temperature it really sucks to have to go to school and trainings, though i really enjoy going to school now haha...

So Freshman Orientation camp was like two 3 weeks ago. Sad to say I do not have the feel for FOC, maybe its because i was away for trainings and problems most of the time during FOC whereas for FOW i could stay throughout the whole three days... I really miss ZETTEN!! Seeing my very own freshie really brings back memories of me being a freshie myself last year..

On the last day of FOC, I had a performance at Orchard Tangs for Biotherm. Was a wonderful experience to be doing a performance for some men skincare products. Their color theme for the booth matches our team's color. After the performance we headed down to Tanjong Pagar for dinner to so called 'celebrate'. First time eating at SS. It was really nice, shall go there with S soon..

Two weeks ago was Week 0... M and J came up to me to ask for help with the Cheerleading part of regatta. Well the outcome wasn't really what i expected but still they did great. i'm really proud of them cause they didn't have any background and they only took like 3 days just to learn and memorize the whole routine. Engine won Regatta after 5 years.

Last week was CCA Orientation.. It was also the week where K and T managed Toss To Hands me. K said that i lost weight. Well maybe i did since i fell sick for quite some time.

The week ended with me meeting up with S on sat before meeting the Dip Heads. We went to Fort Canning park walk walk. Then i met the Dip Heads at Yellow Jellow. The next day i met S again for lunch at Woodlands. i then rushed to The Helix bridge for performance. after the whole performance, K did TTH extension and took a picture shall put it up soon...

GTG

The first two months of 2010 has just ended which means three things to me...

1) The end of Year 1 / The start of Year 2 is approaching soon

2) Nationals is in like 20 days time

3) I'm turning 18

I have to say that having gone through AY09/10, I have definitely noticed a huge change in myself. Well I'm not sure whether its good or not, but all i know is i am no longer the Kai that used to be some time ago. In fact i dun even want to be known as kHai...

moving on

with the start of my new education level, i wanted to try something new and that was why i had joined Temasek Polytechnic Cheerleading team... Blazers... well we have been through loads.. there has been ups and downs... but recently i have had a whole load of downs. not being able to fly properly and also lost touch of my back tuck. well now i know how that P feels when we call him that.

I really got to put my mind into this. I cant afford to disappoint K and Coach A now. we are just 20 freaking days away. I starting to get my engine to warm up, but its not fast enough. Trainings gonna be everyday from now on.. that means i must really sleep early...

OK shall post my birthday wish list tmr i think...

Maybe I should not have said that 2010 is starting to kick off great in my previous post... I admit it hasn't been... Ok maybe I have high hopes on myself like how much I want to be in committee next year. I just realized that that might not come true due to my own attitude and such.

After I talked to J senior last Tuesday, I did a really deep reflection. I guess it’s true what my friends had said about me changing, emotionally, character, practically everything. I am no longer that someone who used to be thinking about how others feel. I no longer think before I do anything. It really sucks to know that you have change, not for the better, but for the worst. So I told myself that I would change. Someone who does not show his true feelings to the world; a facade that I have yet to build.

So I thought that after that night I have already set my resolutions straight and that I have already decided to be strong. It turns out to be that I expected too much out of myself. I was super disappointed when you guys just.....

This early morning rain really made me decide that this shall be the last. I am really going to put a stronger front. I am going to stand strong on my decision.

A butterfly after a cocoon; a rainbow after a storm; spring after winter; everything has a new form...

Time really flew past last year.

Frankly, I did not felt the festive excitement of counting down like how i used to just few years back. Maybe its due to the fact that my academic year starts only in April (this assumption was supported by my secondary school cliques).

What made me decided to blog today was that I felt like i abandoned this place for far too long and since its a new year, I decided to have a new start.

If it wasn't for the non-festive season feel, i would have said that it was a good start to 2010. Nevertheless it has started to kick off great. Training has been great ever since coach came back from her vacation. It's really nice to be able to show her how much i have trained but then again i did not improve that much i guess.

Oh wells time to go off... going for a run... cya

I have totally used up my whole holidays on activities and there was no rest at all, how great is that?

Frankly I can no longer remember what has happened during the whole of the semester break so i shall just elaborate about a few of the recent events...

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So October Orientation was not as bad as what i had expected it to be. Was selected at the very last minute i think cause my name was not in the list of mentors when i reported. I got to know that i would be taking care of class Q951 the day when the freshies report. Together with Arif, Ansari and Zen. Frankly, the instant when Jel said that, i went speechless. at first, i thought that i could not work well with an, neither could i get along with arif and at that moment i dont even know who zen is.

We then went of to short circuit for breakfast. that was when i first talked to Zen. it felt super awkward cause there was no proper introduction given to and from both parties. So the freshies started coming in and all had activities the whole day and soon it was already the end of the first day of the camp. ones the freshies left, i went for training.. injured knee really hurts. but did not show the pain.

The next day was the last day. Frankly i was not expecting the class to be so bonded and quite enthusiastic. they participated and had fun. zen bought for them sweets... it might be small and little but its the thoughts that counts...

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Went to Esplanade to watch Impak Maksima a Malay musical.. was freaking nice...

i really hope our friendship would go back to normal..............

Its not a surprise if no one ever come and visit my blog, since its like dead for ages. Well Hari Raya this year totally seems dull. However the only interesting thing about this year's Hari Raya is that i went beck to Kampung on the second day. Photos can be found on my facebook account..

So Blazers training has gotten more and more interesting. We had HTHT session on Thursday for about an hour plus. After which, coach came and we started our training proper. We went straight to group stunts.

Yesterday, we had gymnastic session over at Raffles Institution. Started off with front walk over, but i stopped after trying for about half-an-hour due to my lack of flexibility. I then moved on to perfect my cartwheel and round-off before proceeding to learn running cartwheel/round-off. However my progress there was dampened after the arrival of someone. My spirits just hit rock bottom. I spent the remaining time over at the trampoline jumping my ass off. Trained up on my locking and pulling myself up to improve my craddle pop.

Hari Raya is finally here but i dont really feel the festivities in me. It seems like a normal day passing by.