so today i erupted in class after school....... i really could not take it with all the problems that i am facing....... imran



KRISHA................... haix how i really need her now.........





FAmily..................










KACANG........................

was grounded... so dun really have the opportunity to blog... so today is the friday 27072007..... today is GEN JIE birthday... happy birthday jie.... haha..lol so today is a normal day.... did not get to see her... haha.. so had a normal boring day today.... start of the day was geog for two periods... i was like suaned by mdm fadhilah as she caught me studying three times at one time... haha imagine.... you studying SS GEOG & PHYSICS all during Geog lesson.... haha..... so she said a malay proverb... sounded something like chasing something we want... whatever we carrying dropped along the way.... haha.. so then after geog it was physics... the test was like damn fucking hard also can.... haha but managed to finished it..... then the period after that was ENG... miss O was like teaching the cosmetic part of plastic surgery early this week..... then come today.... she taught us the reconstructive part and showed us a pic of this actress going from beautiful to ugly to uglier......... and the pic was like a ghost..... we were like screaming away in class...... then she went into the breast cancer thing and everyone started to get horny.... then recceess.... then SS miss L then used the whole 1 hr and had a friendly chat with us... we changed our percpective of her and she chnged hers of us.... then maths where i read nat book like super fast..... and mrs T tought it was Harry Potter....... then after school we went to eat then went to watch movie alone..... so fucking scary.... i sat with ir while s sat with a so we were seperated.... then ir made me scream sia at the end.......

didn't blog cause been sick lately...... very wierd.... school ok... reach home only.... start feeling sick... haix... so on wednesday after school had Change Agents... and we had games like thinking of a famous person and act out his famous gestures or say a phrase... well guesse what i am then... "to our new students welcome......" hahaha so we then played blow wind blow then after which tim ashley and another guy whom i cant remember who had 3 mistakes... so the game ended when tim did his last blunder.... so then tim was asked to proposed to all the gals in change agents to go on a date which was un succesful... then we did a radio intro where a junior is paired to a senior and i was paired with Pira... so we did about a bitch society..... haha.... then after that we had a committee meeting... where the newly elected board of directors got to know their positions in the society.....

President: SHAHERAH
Vice President: TIM
Secretary: SAMANTHA
Debate Head: Ashley
Podcast Head: CHERYL
Camera & Tech: ME KAYRUL
Sec 1 Head: SHAHEED
Sec 2 Head: BERNICE

so we then go home......

then yesterday nth much just went home early and slept till 10++

today after school was ver horny.....
diyanah kissed syiqin on her cheeks...
then my syiqin and iryanna watch harry potter.....

haix wat a day........ school was ok.... everything went well.... just that during the 4th period my stomach started to hurt like super pain.. then it stayed until now..... so my stomach is in utter pain... after school promised Krisha to meet but she went missing and i had a meeting... so met her after that and then went to NCC.... so we had the usual strenious PT... but then we played Captains ball against NPCC... so we played.... and gues wat.... i fell and hurt myself..... well it was a little bit romantic...... ok so here was what happened....

i was running.... theni banged into her.... and then i accidentaly kicked her ankle ther...... then i went into a flying mode... then landed on the ground together with her... and we slide on the ground.... and its those road ground...... damn it it hurts a lot... then i went into a state of shock.... so Raqif and Fadzli carried me to the drain infront of 3H all the way from in front of 3C...... so the NPCC people panic as they saw my wound.... and started to wash it with ICE COLD water... then luckily..... to my rescue... came Shelia and her sec twos Red Cross.. so she helped me clean and handled it..... it was superb.... eventhough if it were to be a serious accident... i would have died due to lose of blood.... haha...... and all this while that stupiud CLT was saying eh lets continue to play....... walau he did not even see me lor..... useless...... so he dismissed them without me.... haix......... so sad....

so now i have a very painful wound
on my shoulder and elbow........ wound on my palm and leg....... thanks alot CLT......

so today is the 160707.... the second day of my O lvel paper.. was rather confident earlier today... so the butterfly did not flutter in my tummy.. haha... our canteen has been shifted to another tempporary holding site... which is our field..... so we have to walk a great distance just to eat for like 30minutes... haha.... so the school was released at 1 pm cause of the Listening comprehension..... and ours (malay) reporting time was only at 4.30... so we decided to go to Tampines Regional Library to take a nap or even sleep peacefully there.... but then our planned changed... so me Dsquared and R went to TM to just windowshopped.... we were then followed by the others after we called them to meet at Isetan so we then headed to CS to take neoprint together... so when we were on our way to the shop... my fwens actually recognised my nieice.... yes niece.... they made me walk in front of her... so malu.... haha so take pic.... and OMFG i look so photogeninc........ lol...... haha... so we then went to buy food and met at the ionterchange to make our way to school.... so LC and then went home....... haix....


i don't think i can hold on to you any longer... really..... the more i hold on to it the more you loose my grip... so i think i will just resurface and take a new gulp of air and find a new fish in the ocean.........

i am sick today and i dont know why....
so irritating sey....
maybe cause my oral yesterday was about flu
haha... so endured till i can't which was during ENG..
so when the lesson ended.. followed Miss O down...
she was kind.... thanks lot...
so then after that went back to class ate it..
and when school ended i already felt better....
so we then went to bubble tea shop...
where Asquared was there.... haha.. so dumb..
then went back to school... learnet to play guitar.
went home and was horny all the way back....
cause both me and Dsquared talked dirty stuff...
and laughed... reached home to find i left my key in school...
so waited for 3 hours... haix....

well today is the start of my O level exams.. the exams kick off with the oral Examinations... i was really calm even during recess... but then once amaths started... butterflies started to fly around in my stomach.... i really hate that sensation you know.. its like i was calm then just hours before the exam i panic.... haix..so we had to leave the a maths lesson during the start of its second period... so sad... haha by then i was like freaking out... my face was like very hot la..... haha... so we went to the canteen and i practiced in front of the western stall lady.. then she corrected me alot and i was like thinking... i am so dead..... so then at 2 the bell rang and it was a cue for us to head to the holding room.. by the time we finished packing... the students already came to the canteen.. last minute hugs and good lucks was like everywhere.... so sweet.... lol... so we then made our way there. and we were early.. yueah baby........... lol... so we waited for about ten minutes before the time keeper came.. and guse what the time keeper was mr J haha... he was very kind.... kinda calmed me down lots.... so we kinda end fast cause there were only 8 of us... haha.... then during my turn, they all said that i was very loud ven from the waiting area could hear. haha.. which was like the other side of the library... wow i am loud.... haha.... but isn't that good??? haha so went out with syiqs, nat, syah........ we then at cup noodles... then went home... i wiated like 30 minutes for the damn bus...... haix.... then in the bus my head started to spin... damn it... and till now it is still spining.... i am having flu nooooooooooooooooo.... then reached home at around 7 and slept till 8 then tried to sign in to MSN but i couldnt dun noe why... so rather pissed right now.....

was kinda lazy to blog this few days... haha

ok so today is like the end of the 2nd week of term 3
time really flies... haha so today was also the day where
we have to hand in our IPW recording. haix... damn it la..
super stressed up... need a break...
NEED THE BEACH AND FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so just now after i rushed outside school, i ran back
to school and reached school at 145... MrJ already left
the school... MY HEART BROKE INTO A MILLION PIECES INSIDE AND OUT
so i just returned Daniels thumbdrive and went for the oral practice with Cikgu H
during the practice, she was like whining that she is hungry... haha
so cute. KAWAII hahaha...
after buying her food i went to the benches in front of the Life Science Lab
and join Iry Sya and Rai.... we then started to bitch a bout a gal in 3A
so funy can... haha.. then waited and waited for mona...
and at 3++ we finally decide to go and eat.. we then
went to eat and waited for Mona there...
she then called us once she ended and said a comment which was irritating....
"you beromance with Kay is it.."
i was like wth haha... but we laughed....
so we ate and talked bout O level...
then we went to TM in search of Guitar pick for iry
and Shoes for Monas mum....
we then went to the library and then i went home....

was rather busy this few days... so no time to blog bah... so i shall start bloging about friday the one where we went out to sentosa for the NCC SPEC Course reunion...


FRIDAY 220607...

our plan for that day was as such;

0925 Meet Ikhtiari at Pasir Ris MRT station
0925-0955 Journey to Raffles Place
0955-1000 Wait for Dad at Raffles Place
1000-1030 Journey to Harbour Front
1030-1100 Journey to Sentosa
1100-1115 Find a nice spot on the beach
1115-1215 Sky Ride & Luge ride
1215-1230 Jouney to CineBlast and break
1230-1245 Cineblast
1245-1250 Journey to beach
1250-1430 SunTan
1430-1500 Play by the shore
1500-1530 Journey to Vivo City
1530-??? Window shopping

what a lovely plan that we have planned... but unfortunately alot of things cropped up to make our plan be behind schedule... this is what we actually did...

0900 Reach Pasir Ris MRT station
0900-0945 Wait for Ikhtiari
0945-1020 Journey to Raffles Place
1020-1035 Wait for Dad
1035-1105 Journey to Harbour Front
1105-1430 Windowshop at Vivo City and Brunch
1430-1330 Meet Felix and head to Sentosa
1330-15++ Sky Ride & Luge
1600-2100 Window shop at Vivo City and dinner at Paccific Cafe

so thats our plan... now i am gonna tell you what exactly happened....

i was like super excited as that will be the first time meeting them after the NCC Spec Course... so that morning woke up like super early and got ready.. did'nt really rush myself as there was like 2 hours for me to travel and such... so i left house and made my way to Pasir Ris MRT station so reach there like 30 mins early then what we had originally planned... so i smsed Ikhtiari so that he could come a little it earlier then what was planned cause we need to head to Raffles Place first so that i can collect the money from my Dad.. and he replied immediately saying that he is sorry but he would be reaching 15 minutes later then what was planned which was 0945.. i was like what the hell... so i had to like stay there for 45 minutes... standing there like an idiot who was sweating like nobody's bussiness... haha... so instead of arriving at 0945, he arrived at 1015 so was really pissed... but i had to keep it to myself as it will make the whole trip not fun anymore... so we then headed to Raffles Place there we waited for my dad who took quite some time...

so then after that we headed to Harbour Front... and halfway through the Journey Felix called us saying that he will be late as he was in Orchard shopping... so we continued our journey and spent most of the time sitting at the open deck at Vivo City while watching all the behaviours of the people around... something funny then happened.. to foreigners came and took picture with the cable car as the background... so funny... cause the guy that was in the picture posed so gaily that we started laughing... once they gone both me and Ikhtiari re-enact the scene... and we burst out laughing...

so a few minutes past and i was getting hungry... we then headed to the Banquet in the Harbour Front building... i ate yong Tau Foo and ikhtiari just drank a tin of drink... so i said to Ikhtiari that if i managed to finish eating before Felix arrive that means that Felix is late... and true enough it did happened... then we went out of the building and waited for him outside once he saw us we made our way to the bus interchange where we took the bus there...

so we went to Palawan Beach to put our stuff there and left Felix to Sun Tan all alone... haha... i actually wanted to join him to get myself evenly tanned but then i followed Ikhtiari to take the the Sky Ride and Luge... so we both bought the ticket and went to the Sky Ride starting point... so we had to stand on the yellow dot painted on the floor.. we were stupid enough to think that one leg one dot... haha... so we were kinda screaming cause both of us had height phobia... then i was like grabbing onto the railing so hard that my fist turned white... i did not know that my height phobia is so deep.... whatever... so when we reach the most highest point on the ride, we could see the skyscrappers in singapore.... such a nice view... but wierdly, it was kinda foggy... so not that clear... thats when i started to freak out again..... we were going down... haha... we were like once again screaming our heads of... haha then when we reached, we were like omg that was fun.... maybe we should do that again... so we then went to join the queue for the Luge.... the line was quiet long but i think that it was ok la cause it moved fast... but one think i hate bout the wait was that it was super noisy... the noise was not from the humans... but from the kart itself... haha... so after waiting for about 10 mins... it was our turn to go down... haha... so fun... so we started the ride by having a short lesson for about 10 meters... then we were off... but after about 100 meters, we had to stop to get our hands chopped with a stamp... so after that we were free to ride all the way down... but something embarassing happened... haha... my kart skidded of the track and got stuck at the grass patch... haha... so malu... lucky no one was around except for Ikhtiari... so we then raced all the way down... haha...

then when we reached the nase, wewent up the sky ride again to get to the CineBlast... this time we stood on only one dot as by doing so, we would be secured be a thing... which means that the first time when we took it, we could have simply slip of the carriage... haha... so when we reached the top, we went straight to the cineblast to get our tickets... but sadly... the show only starts at four and it was 3.45 so we waited at the bench near the entrance... while waiting Ikhtiari was like asking me question like in an interview... haha... he asked questio like 'do i have girlfriend' 'are you gay' and such.... super irritating sia... then my shirt the shiny things was like coming of... so i lucked everything ou... and it turned out nicer... haha then we went in... the ambience was like super nice can...... haha... it was very dark...... the entrance i mean.... then the floor was lighted by LED lights on the floor which blinks.... then my shirt kinda changed colour... then after following the light, which look as if it was magically appearing from nowhere, all the way to the end of the corridor..... we came to a very cramped room.. where there was another opening in front. we took the front stand and kinda lean against the railing. we were right smack ion front. so the thiung started by spraying water down like a fountain. then an image came out. it look super cool sia.. oh wait. it started with a very loud music which i danced too... while Ikhtiari was shouting at... haha.. he was shocked.... then when the song ended the water part started.. after about 5 minutes of the 3D professor mumblings... the projector just went off... then i was like thats the end.. haha... but in actual fact it was just about to start.. we were asked to go into the next room via the passegeway....

so the next room was like soo big.. as big as our school AVt.. but i think it is biger.. so we sat and got ready.. etcetc... then beside me sat an indian national. so we made friends. haha. and when it start.... i started shouting.. haha... so it was fun as it really feel real....... so after that we made our way back to the beach. then on the way back, we were kinda filmed in the new show... KachingKaching on kidscentral... lol... we were in the background of the thing la.... so no big deal...

went back to the beach and felix was waiting for us.. he was kinda pissed as he waited for us for quite a long time.. so then after that we went to Vivo City... to eat... so we went to eat at charles jr and then thought of going to movie... end up we went to pacific cafe and stayed there till quite late thenwe went to window shop and felix bought quite a number of things.... he is RICH.....

so that was what happened on thast dya......... hahah.... on overall it was fun....

this post is specially to those ppl whom i have met during the 4days course...

anton; nice guy whom i met during the first night.... really understanding..... can actually meet up with him often cause he is from Ngee Ann.... we talked in the middle of the night when it was dark... was rather fun as there was this very low wall which is between both of us..... so rather scary at times.....

Faisal; another Mr. nice guy. haha.. i didn't know that he has a sister in DMN... i only started talking to him like on the third day or so... so not quite close.. but he is a nice guy.......

Kamaliah; haha the funny gal who borrowed moi pen and almost forgot to return it on the last day... haha.... so funny... just chat with her and she actually forgot who i am.. what the hell... but on the whole she is a nice lady... but wished i had known her better as in from day 1?

Nadiah; hahax an old friend of mine... couldn't believe that i would be meeting her there... she did change la... or maybe in the past i didn't know her that well which is like an impossibile... so she did change... hahax we finally talked on the third day which is quite late... i didn't know why but i cant seem to have the corrouge to talk to her...

Fadhil; a nice guy from VS haha... very cute and funny guy... made friend with him only on the 3rd day... don't know why ppl say he OOC on 2nd day... did not see him either on that day... haha....

finally i came to the two most important names on the list..... hahax..


Felix; a funny guy.. from bedok sumting secondary school... i cant really rememebr whether its bedok town bedok souith or bedok north... he was really concerned about his hair... and he is actually a hetro... the first that i have ever met... we actually camwhore in the train on our way back sia... but was fun... i am gonna miss him... sadly i only knew him on the third day during lunch when i wasnt quite feeling well....

Ikhtiari; a funny lamer... you know that some jookes are so lame that you actually laugh at it not about it... this is exactly a classical case... gonna miss him as he kinda cheered me up during the 4 days course

heys just came back from NCC Spec course..... was a very tiring 4 day camp... was rather expecting a 2sgt rank.... but end up got a 3sgt rank...... but i had a bloody hell of a time....... met a lot of fwensssssssss. then we plan to go out next week fri.....

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh damn it i am like fucking pissed right now....... was just scolded for letting my sis sitting on me... what the hell its my body, my life let me lie it my way....had my first lesson today and missed one the other time... cause of my camp.. had sec 3 camp from29 to 30 at kota tinggi damn fun... then the next day went to zoo was scolded there for my foul attituder... what the hell i wasnt even with attitude on that day... then the next day was LTC trainers camp... had high E low E as well as sea act... damn fun cause i managed to over come my fear of heights with WEN QING... haha thanks girl... u were a great help... then low E was very fast... sea act was the best as i learned how to kayakthen we learned campsizing the kayak... luckily mine is a closed deck kayak... if not me too were to campsize it... then after that we had our rafting joel was sitting in front of me... lol.... wat a funny thing cause we kept banging each others oar...then when we reach the centre we tried to cap the raft biut it was a failure... haha...then went for our raod march...was pissed with a few things ... so end up i walk dang fast... haha... we took 50 minutes to rreach from one end to another of changi beach...

the sec 3s had their MTP session.. then before that i had NCC training then the stupid SIR came then i was like i never eat recess then lunch also never eat.... then on wednesday i sick so on that day i was still sick ma... then how can he like pump me... i know its good for me also as it kinda train my bod... but i am still sick ma... but what to do still must endure... if not i will have nothing left exccept for my accedemic... continue next time... gotta do all the homework/...

long time never blog..... been very busy with mid year and speak good english week... today is finally the day for speak good english week... we were only given one week to memorise the script... its good effort guys... really proud of you people... the most important thing is that the students love us... hahax... the games was super "FUN"... at least it did not turn out to be as bad as how i tought it would be... haha... i cant beleive it 3F actually beat 3E by 10 points... then the performance was a hit... but my face was painted blue with a face paint. and i cant seem to wash it of in school... but when i got home i managed to wash it off before i went to photocopy the consent form for our annual camp... it cost me a total of 12 bucks la... buty i really hope that i will be worthwhile...


somehow i just wonder how sucky this live can really get... its like super annoyinh la... its like why must be so unfair... i am like on the same side as you now la Jay i understand... so pls stop hurting me...

i actually talk to her the other time and asked her whydid we like stead and break up 16 days later... here is what she says......
"well Kay i understand how ou feel right now... i know you are like super sad right... well the reason why i actually accepted you was that i wanted to give both me and you, Kay a try... but i decided to break up cause its like i dun realy love you..."

i was like utterly shock can... what is this you promised me and i promised you... looks like the promise you made were broken by you......

i cant believe thatr i actually trusted you guys.... you guys are actually a bunch of suckers just trying to make me feel sad and such... just leave me alone ok... i have enough problem in scholl council, family and now you guys are adding more... whats the point... i vcant see it... haix....

hey Jay if you were to read this ever... pls noe that i really need someone to talk to... i cant really bottle up anymore....

today was my very first paper HMT AND ENG paper 1... was pretty confident bout it... for the first time evr i knew all my formats... really proud of you.... even though you are sick... heartbroken and all those shit.. but tomorrow is SS and ENG paper 2... i only confident in paper two...... but not ss.. so gonna study.....

haix..... had tuition today so i cant follow my parents go JB... but at leasat i can rest at home.. feeling rather feverish lately.... haix..... really hope that i can get myself an MP3 soon... need music badly.......exams are like super close man... freaking out badly cause i not feeling well.... feeling down... haix.... damn it la..... my specs course clashes with my LTC camp. i wanna go for both but haix i don't.......... pls help me someone

i am very sad to announce that me and her............. we finally borke up..... its very sad....... i still love her...... and its like only 16days la....... hiax... could not bear the news...... cried like hell in class....... couldnt bear the pain of breaking up with someone who i really love and cherish........ buut what can i do.... i can like only move on............

been really busy lately. had a lot meetings and stuff... haix damn tired can... selected for LTC proud but tiring. but fun.. dont know la.....


went out with Cikgu Liyana on saturday took some pics with the others and stuff... man we look so gay... hahax..... will put it up soon......

i am still mising you gal..... why did we even stead in the first place if you gonna avoid me. i really love you. and you like doubt my words.... i know i am having some problems.. but pls dun assume tat if i find the love again i will just dump you... i will never do tat k... its like i love you deep in my heart.... you ask me to promise you that i won't break your heart and hurt your feelings abd such... but look who is feeling hurt..... huh...... pls i really wanna patch this up.. lets just start a new.........

long time never blog. haix. miss blogging so much... today very tired..... got NCC training... but sadly it was about to rain. haix... damn it la.... then after that 2 sirs came and that the sec 4s suddenly weanted to take.... so last minute lorss... haix. then waited for the choir SYF results.. and guess what we got GOLD WITH HONEST i am really proud of you guys....

today was a very boring day... i totally forgot that there was training today... then i found out that we, the sec threes are actually taking over.. haix... so i just came..... haix... then while training, i saw her going home.... what the hell can..... i wanted to go home with her la....... haix.. really miss her so much. haix. then her register number is 27 and mine is 14 so i pasted to numbers together. so sweet rite... haix. got tuition later on... really tired already.... haix hope she comes online before 6.30.. cause i nedd to go by then......