So today is the last day of the month.

So my review of the first month of 2011 is that it has been better than last years.

So lately I have been having Insomnia, which sucks cause like my body is super tired yet it is not shutting down for maintenance ): So what I have been doing while I'm up at this unearthly hours is to look for things that I want for my birthday. As of now I have seven things in mind. My plan is to have 19 things in my wishlist since its my 19th birthday this year. I really hope to get something out of the 19 that I plan to post on 6 February or earlier. So stay tuned and I will post my 19 wishlist here (:

Speaking of birthday wishes, that reminds me a cousin of mine who asked me whether I would be having any celebration. Well I have never had a proper celebration since like primary school, and the celebration that was planned by DINKSS is not really a proper celebration (though I really appreciate it). It would definitely be nice to have one this year. However I'm not sure whether to have it or not. Like I got so many people to invite; people like TP Blazers, Eng Peeps, Primary School Cliques, DINKSS, Outside Friends and Family. Having just one party would be too little. But having more than one cost alot ): Well what I had in mind was to only have a celebration like when I turn 21, but that cousin of mine say that it would be too long ): maybe I'll do one when I turn 20 and again when I turn 21 haha (:

Ok shall end the post here. Must head to bed if not tomorrow cannot wake up to meet Baby Clover (:

~`Kai`~

New Life of the Old Dead blog

So guys as what i said MONTHS ago, I would be revamping my blogskin so here it is all done.. I'm very satisfied with it (: yippee I know its very plain and all but who cares its nice... haha... hhmmss So the tittle of the blog goes New Me New Name Skaii... Well it just means New Blog New Name Skaii

Life has been a roller coaster ride, since when it wasn't?, haha. So i finally managed to send my laptop for repair and its working perfectly now (:

Will end this post here for now (: shall update again soon (:

~`Kai`~

I shall revamp this blog... yes i wil (:

Ok so its the second day of the second week of my second academic year (isn't it cool? That's the reason why i decided to blog today) So things have been going quite well other then me falling sick ever since like regatta. With fluctuating temperature it really sucks to have to go to school and trainings, though i really enjoy going to school now haha...

So Freshman Orientation camp was like two 3 weeks ago. Sad to say I do not have the feel for FOC, maybe its because i was away for trainings and problems most of the time during FOC whereas for FOW i could stay throughout the whole three days... I really miss ZETTEN!! Seeing my very own freshie really brings back memories of me being a freshie myself last year..

On the last day of FOC, I had a performance at Orchard Tangs for Biotherm. Was a wonderful experience to be doing a performance for some men skincare products. Their color theme for the booth matches our team's color. After the performance we headed down to Tanjong Pagar for dinner to so called 'celebrate'. First time eating at SS. It was really nice, shall go there with S soon..

Two weeks ago was Week 0... M and J came up to me to ask for help with the Cheerleading part of regatta. Well the outcome wasn't really what i expected but still they did great. i'm really proud of them cause they didn't have any background and they only took like 3 days just to learn and memorize the whole routine. Engine won Regatta after 5 years.

Last week was CCA Orientation.. It was also the week where K and T managed Toss To Hands me. K said that i lost weight. Well maybe i did since i fell sick for quite some time.

The week ended with me meeting up with S on sat before meeting the Dip Heads. We went to Fort Canning park walk walk. Then i met the Dip Heads at Yellow Jellow. The next day i met S again for lunch at Woodlands. i then rushed to The Helix bridge for performance. after the whole performance, K did TTH extension and took a picture shall put it up soon...

GTG

The first two months of 2010 has just ended which means three things to me...

1) The end of Year 1 / The start of Year 2 is approaching soon

2) Nationals is in like 20 days time

3) I'm turning 18

I have to say that having gone through AY09/10, I have definitely noticed a huge change in myself. Well I'm not sure whether its good or not, but all i know is i am no longer the Kai that used to be some time ago. In fact i dun even want to be known as kHai...

moving on

with the start of my new education level, i wanted to try something new and that was why i had joined Temasek Polytechnic Cheerleading team... Blazers... well we have been through loads.. there has been ups and downs... but recently i have had a whole load of downs. not being able to fly properly and also lost touch of my back tuck. well now i know how that P feels when we call him that.

I really got to put my mind into this. I cant afford to disappoint K and Coach A now. we are just 20 freaking days away. I starting to get my engine to warm up, but its not fast enough. Trainings gonna be everyday from now on.. that means i must really sleep early...

OK shall post my birthday wish list tmr i think...

Maybe I should not have said that 2010 is starting to kick off great in my previous post... I admit it hasn't been... Ok maybe I have high hopes on myself like how much I want to be in committee next year. I just realized that that might not come true due to my own attitude and such.

After I talked to J senior last Tuesday, I did a really deep reflection. I guess it’s true what my friends had said about me changing, emotionally, character, practically everything. I am no longer that someone who used to be thinking about how others feel. I no longer think before I do anything. It really sucks to know that you have change, not for the better, but for the worst. So I told myself that I would change. Someone who does not show his true feelings to the world; a facade that I have yet to build.

So I thought that after that night I have already set my resolutions straight and that I have already decided to be strong. It turns out to be that I expected too much out of myself. I was super disappointed when you guys just.....

This early morning rain really made me decide that this shall be the last. I am really going to put a stronger front. I am going to stand strong on my decision.

A butterfly after a cocoon; a rainbow after a storm; spring after winter; everything has a new form...

Time really flew past last year.

Frankly, I did not felt the festive excitement of counting down like how i used to just few years back. Maybe its due to the fact that my academic year starts only in April (this assumption was supported by my secondary school cliques).

What made me decided to blog today was that I felt like i abandoned this place for far too long and since its a new year, I decided to have a new start.

If it wasn't for the non-festive season feel, i would have said that it was a good start to 2010. Nevertheless it has started to kick off great. Training has been great ever since coach came back from her vacation. It's really nice to be able to show her how much i have trained but then again i did not improve that much i guess.

Oh wells time to go off... going for a run... cya

I have totally used up my whole holidays on activities and there was no rest at all, how great is that?

Frankly I can no longer remember what has happened during the whole of the semester break so i shall just elaborate about a few of the recent events...

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So October Orientation was not as bad as what i had expected it to be. Was selected at the very last minute i think cause my name was not in the list of mentors when i reported. I got to know that i would be taking care of class Q951 the day when the freshies report. Together with Arif, Ansari and Zen. Frankly, the instant when Jel said that, i went speechless. at first, i thought that i could not work well with an, neither could i get along with arif and at that moment i dont even know who zen is.

We then went of to short circuit for breakfast. that was when i first talked to Zen. it felt super awkward cause there was no proper introduction given to and from both parties. So the freshies started coming in and all had activities the whole day and soon it was already the end of the first day of the camp. ones the freshies left, i went for training.. injured knee really hurts. but did not show the pain.

The next day was the last day. Frankly i was not expecting the class to be so bonded and quite enthusiastic. they participated and had fun. zen bought for them sweets... it might be small and little but its the thoughts that counts...

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Went to Esplanade to watch Impak Maksima a Malay musical.. was freaking nice...

i really hope our friendship would go back to normal..............

Its not a surprise if no one ever come and visit my blog, since its like dead for ages. Well Hari Raya this year totally seems dull. However the only interesting thing about this year's Hari Raya is that i went beck to Kampung on the second day. Photos can be found on my facebook account..

So Blazers training has gotten more and more interesting. We had HTHT session on Thursday for about an hour plus. After which, coach came and we started our training proper. We went straight to group stunts.

Yesterday, we had gymnastic session over at Raffles Institution. Started off with front walk over, but i stopped after trying for about half-an-hour due to my lack of flexibility. I then moved on to perfect my cartwheel and round-off before proceeding to learn running cartwheel/round-off. However my progress there was dampened after the arrival of someone. My spirits just hit rock bottom. I spent the remaining time over at the trampoline jumping my ass off. Trained up on my locking and pulling myself up to improve my craddle pop.

Hari Raya is finally here but i dont really feel the festivities in me. It seems like a normal day passing by.

SHAG

Ok once again this blog is like dead... Oh wells what to do i am really busy...

So Asian Youth Games ended with a bang on 10th July, well the appreciation did that is to my view la... Got a free Frasia haha... Lucky i did not buy... But what a 'Dinner' it is... Haha... The only food was potato chips and buns... Rushed over to the airport immediately after that to meet the Zetten people...

What should i do... I really feel empty deep down... I miss you deeply but it seems like there isn't any chance for me to meet you some time soon...

Ok so tomorrow cheerleading will have a performance over at the area in front of the library do come and support k...

DUE TO SENSITIVITY THE POST HAS BEEN DEMOLISHED!!!

my life as a poly student has just gotten even more screwed...

Ok a dead blog needs its revival sometime soon.... Haha

Well been busy with school and term test like two to three weeks ago. Then when term break takes over it felt great. Started my term break with going to Flight Experience with the lovely Sherwin & Samson. Samson led the three of us by flying a plane in a normal day condtions. It was the my turn and what i got was a night flight from changi airport. The experience was woah!! But i think Sherwin would gain more experience cause he got a flight in a typical Singapore tropical thunderstorm.

After our session was planning to catch a movie but unfortunately, there wasn't any time slots that is suitable for us so we went to eat instead before heading off.

Met Kor when they left and had a HTHT before a massive cam-whoring session on City Hall platform.



Friday went off to KL was th bomb...

Came back from KL went straight for Combined Empire Night Cycling to Hendersons Waves and after which went for SYFC trip and followed by training that night...

Had ESC leadership camp yesterday but we zhaoed halfwy cause it was too boring... Went to catch a movie with Shah's treat before going over to sleepover his place. Then later got TPSU sub-com camp an blazers training...


having a dillemma between blazers training or TPSU camp.....

I'm feeling so low now can???



I'm like happy and jumping around, however deep down i really feel empty. i cant seem to understand what is wrong with myself.

anyhooossss....
i just got myself a new haircut!!!! so cool man... but it makes me look like a bloody mat sia... MAT... i cant believe it... haha... CRAP i'm damn high now... haha...

I feel bad. I know i should not have done it. But as usual it always backfires.

Its like our love-life is about the same.

I'm sad. Why did you have to do it that way? I know i said i moved on but frankly i have not, not even to this day. Tell me how to. You ended my passion for you just like that. Each day i see you now i just cant bear to show my true feelings. The only way to cover this up, well obviously to disturb you.

Poly has been difficult but it also reminds me of all the mac study sessions. I shouldn't be reminded of the past but i cant erase them. Friends never fails to crack jokes and make me forget them. But your scent still lingers.

Thanks for the memories.

Sorry for the dead blog. I admit it's very dead... What to do damn busy adapting to poly life... Frankly Poly life is cool...

So i would like to take this opportunity to raise up some names that i think worthy to be mentioned.

HAZIRAH: Ok la i gotta admit this ever-so-enthu-and-crazy senior of mine ROCKS MY SMELLY SOCKS, pebbles & stones included.. Haha.. Well i turn to her when i am down and all.. I guess if i were to know here back then in secondary school it'll be worse... Haha... So thanks MAKCIK (eventhough your siblings are not even close to marrying yet)...

PAIGE: I will forever remember her as my ZETTEN GL & Week 0 FA.. Thanks for making me high at times...

WEI GUANG: The only ZETTEN GL that can make me laugh like crap...

BERNITA: Thanks for going crazy with me and being concern....

SUN: For making me have fun today by rejecting me the whole day...

JOSH: For being there for me and understanding me... THANKS BABE

YONO: I DEEPLY appriciate your support you are my motivation... YOU ROCK CAPTAIN..

CAD: Thanks ATC for guiding me along...

SHERWIN: Sorry if i irritate you with that solitare game... Truth hurts and the truth is you sucks( no la. In fact you ROCK).. Thanks dude...

NEW BLOGSKIN ON THE WAY...

Its like 5.27am and i am still like bloody wide awake... We ended our night acticity like so late that i loved it la... But alot of cock ups happened...

Its the third day of poly life and i'm loving it... Having lectures together with 3 other classes who takes the same subject as you is so cool. Will be having a course camp this Friday. From what i feel its gonna be another blast. Well i am finding it a little hard to clique with some people, but i am trying my best to fit in. Its hard but i have to do it. having some hard time settling down (as usual) but its ok.

I signed up for TPSU, TPDE, TPLS...

i prefer performing arts lei.....

Busy With school updates soon.