Ok I know i am being a Jerk and all... But how am i to reply you when i am overseas...

i cant believe our friendship is breaking apart just because i was overseas and cannot reply..

I Hate This Part Right Here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If YOU are refering to me then i only got a few things to say. I FUCKING do this cause I am TRYING my FUCKING best to FORGET you.

There's a fine line between getting OVER you and FORGET-ing you.

Its not that I dont want give it to you. Its I can't FUCKING leave my house. REMEMBER the POLICE REPORT???????? My mum only allow me to go out if there are anyone older going with me and fetch me from home...

I am sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry... I can't help it.. its getting to me emotionally now ok. YOU have moved on and found that SOMEONE. Without me knowing. I know i am no one to hinder your love life and all.

I just realised something... How Much i actually miss alot of people...

lets just List names...

1990

Prass

Mars

Xin Hui

1991

Jie Rong

Zerlina

Galvin

Sarah Norlina

Dean

Harry

Chee Hiang

1992

Syiqin

Iryanna

Diyanah

how random can i get????

Is it just me or does anyone else feel like the Long Holiday after 'O' is like flashing by so fast??? I dont want it to end...

Was blog hopping and saw this...

'The world revolves, and people change.
Its really scary to hear how things have change, although its just a naive and wishful thinking on my part, to think that everything will be like the past, and it will stay that way.'

Quoted by Wang Jie Rong

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

MERRYCHRISTMASMERRYCHRISTMAS

I Can't believe that today is Christmas eve... haha.. This shows how much i lost track of time... Anyway... I bought for you guys some chocolate that cost me a BOMB... I am not sure if its marvelous... But i could only afford to give each of you a five different flavours a packet each... haix... I am not that RICH you know...

Tag Reply...

Rachel... 

ER i might have forgotten you... but who cares... linked you up already

Fsheena... 

FOR your info, I was away on holiday at KL la DEYH...

Dean... 

Thanks dean... haha.. the only person who wished me that...

Just came back from KL... was ok... More updates coming up...

I AM SO SICK........... DAMMIT....... I GOT FOOD POISONING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched twilight yesterday. It was super nice la. Wish i am Edward Colins. Haix. So STRONG... So FAST... So IMMORTAL.... So COLD SKINNED... Walked to Fort Canning Park alone after watching Twilight. By the time i reached it was fairly dark.. So sat there and emo a while...

All the memories just flashed through my mind. Questions just kept popping up.

One Thing for SURE is i CANNOT move on no matter what. It is unbearable.

Yesterday's BCLS outing was uber fun. Once again this outing falls under one of the few outings where i actually forget all my problems and especially forget about her. Thanks Coach for your help but i now think that i am really really not ready to go into any relationship.

I guess i have to move on....

heartbroken

I feel sad. Why am i always the one who have to experience this. I am really like at the most bottom part of my life i guess. Why must all these happen now. All ini just one short period. How am I supposed to endure.

I feel so FOOLISH. Is it because of me? Or is it just my plain dumb luck that i have to loose you? I know i am supposed to be happy for you, I am. But I don't think i can ever face you without crying my heart out.

I know that there is no use crying over spilled milk. Oh well, what can i do but to move on.

Hey Girl... I am happy for you. Congrats on getting yourself attached with a guy.

I SWEAR that I have LOVED you and i still do up to this very moment. It will end tonight. It has to.

Thanks Iry for giving me that chance to appreciate what first love mean - even if it only lasted for 2 days or so.

TPrawks Day 1

It was weird walking to a poly in your home clothes just like their own student. But everyone was staring at me, maybe it was my shirt. Walked towards the TCC alone as no one i knew was going. from a distant i could hear cheers and all. Felt even more intimidated actually and not more welcomed. When i entered the TCC a group of Blue Hoodies Pack Leaders circled me and asked me to join their group. Well i had already in mind to join Afro Green or Punk Red. So i just said yes to them and continue walking to the registration counter. But it turns out that my earlier registration was not captured in their system, so i had to walk all the way out to re-register. That was when i decided to change to Blue Hoodies. Blue Hoodies 2. But i felt weird. a guy wearing red in a blue group isn't that funny. So i sat down ALONE. Lucky for me one of the Pack Leader came to me and talk. PL Chee Hiang. he was the one who continued to talk to me for the next 3 days. We watched some performances before heading out for icebreakers. We played games such as 'Blow Wind Blow' and many more. We then headed off for our lunch which was macdonalds. After which we went to the school of Informatics & Information Technology. the first part of the school for group 2 was Financial Business Informatics. had the time of my life as i actually know some of the answer. After that was some more games where i won. the most funny thinmg for that day was i was selected twice for representing group 2 in the games. First was charade second was listing game which i almost won myself an MP3.

That concludes the day... which i made wer friends...

my blog will come back alive after the problem has been resolved.

I can't believe that O levels is like coming to an end la. I Only have 4, well others left with 2 i think. Monday will be Social Studies, Wednesday Higher Malay, Next Tuesday is Science Multiple Choice Question and Thursday is Pure Biology Multiple Choice Question.

I don't know why i am feeling this way. I somehow feel that i should just give up on you. Should I? Will it be THE wiser Choice? My heart still burns when i think of you. but somehow the flame is not that strong anymore. Maybe its due to the way you treat me. Or maybe its how i treated you. But whatever it is, deep down in my heart, i still do love you. I treasure you. You are everything to me. But why must you change your mind so fast? I am thankful you did give me a second chance but please LET ME HAVE THIS FINAL MOMENT BE SPENT WITH YOU.

OXYMORON

I am really sad actually. The journey of 4 years of our life is like coming to an end real soon. The final lap begins next thursday. Science practical. I have to push myself harder right now. But what the hell, its really difficult if you are in my shoes.

I might be the happiest teenage in the world right now, but that does not seem to be able to continue for long. my feelings seems to be like an OXYMORON!!!!!!!!!

Guess what i heard my mum saying??

"Because of the brother the sister become like that!! Because of the brother the parents are fighting!! i might as well die its better!!"

How sad does that feel. Ok i know she is like UBER angry with me la... But at least do not make it sound like that la. O levels is like so near at least give me some support not give me more crap to think about. Haix.

To that flower... Thanks for giving me a second chance in trying to pluck you from the garden eventhough there are like numerous thorns out there that also is trying to compete in the same mission. I pledge as of this day that i would not act like how i used to in the past. And i know of a lil secret.

AFTERMATH

Today, Thursday, 21082008, marks the day where i made improvement in a lot of my failing subjects. Improvements, improvements, thats all i have been telling myself. But whats the point of having improvements if it does not result in a pass. I know that there is that malay saying that goes something like 'little-little, long long become hill {direct translation from ' sikit-sikit, lama lama jadi bukit'}. But how do they know how depressing it is to be getting the same grades each time...

Results according to order of paper reiceved:

Humanities {SS/GEO.E}            13+8+12+3=36/100   -----F9

Additional Mathematics             13+24+12=49/180     ----- F9

Pure Biology                                 26.5+8.5+21=56/120  -----E8

English                                           17+13+22+27=52/100 ----C6

so how badly i did... haix...

its all about love

I had lost my faith in LOVE,

Tonight i believe again.

My Heart was a broken piece,

now i feel WHOLE again.

Today is the first mass checking day. I am really glad that my Humans had improved even if it was still a fail. But i am not quite sure how am i gonna disclose this news to my dad. He for sure would go mad and starts scolding me. But all i care is that i have improved. All i need to do now is to work even harder and who knows maybe i could even get a distinction.

Tomorrow is gonna be our career guidance seminar. We have to come to school in office wear... ooo i cant wait.

When life seem to be against you, all you feel like doing would be to run away to a place where you can stay there alone with no one around to even talk to you. I know its gonna be boring but at least i will be safe from all those backstabbing and i would not have to be always prepared for heartbreaks or the sadness of losing someone you trusted.

Oh what the hell is wrong with me why am i feeling this way. I just feel so plastic these days. I pretend to look happy and thing like that in school. Am i doing the right thing? How long am i gonna hide my true feelings from the surface man? I guess i am getting better in hiding my true feelings from everyone. But thinking back at the end of every night i feel that i am not only hiding from them but also hurting myself.

Why is it so? Why am i like losing friends after another. Is it because of my own character or is it just because i am not a good friend?

If this continues to go on i dont think i can handle it..

I know that i have been missing from blogging for like three weeks i think... Two simple reasons...

1. I am UBER busy with O Levels Preparation hence there is no time for me to blog...

2. This blog seems to be DEAD... As in like there is no one coming to read my blog...

Haix... What to do...

DINKS Study Outing {AIRPORT}

The outing was, on the whole, an enjoyably crazy one. I made my own way to the airport as i had some EFFING thing to attend to before that. Reached airport Mac at exactly 11 am. Was influenced to eat the McGriddle. Then we shifted to a table which was further inside the Mc itself. There was this particular chinese lad, who was like using the power socket and charging his notebook, he kept giving us that irritated look as we SILENTLY shifted there. Then beside us is a group of chinese girls. Like ten minutes into our study session, the group of girls started to make so much noise. I was like really irritated that i did a lot of things to make them realise that they were making a lot of noise (things like using a pen and hitting the pole making a ting ting ting sound, slamming the table with stack of books). I guess that girls once they start gossiping about everything and anything in the world they would become very oblivious to their surrounding. 

Then suddenly...

"Eh are WE  like talking very loudly?" (as loudly as usual) 

"YES!!!"

Both Me and Syiqin shouted immediately. Yet that did not stop them. instead they got louder. feeling really irritated me and syiqin shifted to the table exactly beside theirs when natassa arrived. After 15 minutes of more nonsense, we decided to migrate to T3 viewing mall.

There we studied and loads of funny things happened. We went to eat and at about 6 plus head back home.

DINKS Study Outing {AIRPORT}

Life Guard

So i had just passed my lifeguard course. Like finally after so long i managed to improve the timing by a lot.

Life Guards

School has officially started yesterday... Well it was not only my first day of school it was also my sister's first day of school...

Things was extremely hectic yesterday... It was our first ever inaugural for the new school hall... It was utterly nice... But one bad thing is that 4F is right smack in front of the podium... GRRS...

Canteen is uber small...

Today very boring day...

i just got to know that my schience night study programme is like shit...

2.30-4.30 Pure Bio

5.00-7.00 Chem

7.00-9.00 Phys

like shit right... grrs..

Tomorrow is sports day... but cannot participate... grrs...

tats it...

ciaos...

Camp postponed...

Milo is now out of my reach...

Mo I shall now declare you my special someone and that i love you...

have more days for me to rest... my uber long post was deleted by someone.... so to bad.. yuo all wont noe anything...

Was really tired these few days... Been having Emo-Sleepless nights (just like Ms. Skunk)... Ok so there is alot to update...

Tuesday (130508)

It was a Paper 1 day for me... Science Paper 1... Followed by an hour plus break then Biology Paper 1... Then went shopping for windows... Haha... Ms. Iguanna Had a major Strike....

CEDRIC DIGORY!!!

Wednesday (140508)

We ended our MYE with Science Practical... Ok so i thought i was late that day and like rushed here and there causing me to forget my stationary... I was like oh my GAY!!! I didn't bring a single thing... Not even a calculator... So thanks Jia Jing for helping me get everything everytime.... Then it was time for us to be QUARANTINE like some idiots... Imagine having 4 classes sitting in one classroom... Haha... Then we need to hand over our electronics by wrapping them in papers... Haha CUTE...

Then during the Practical itself something setupid happen... The invigilator go and open the door... My flame was all over the place... Then i didn't even get the results i am supposed to...

When the practical ended we were again quarantined... haha... But i had Biology SPA assesors filling... While the rest went to eat BK... Met them up again at Library to head to RP... A Lot of Funny things happened... Went round for hours... haha

Strikes & Jokes Of The Day...

~Waited for a bus service that was not in operation at that point of time...

~We could see rainbow...

~Don't worry Ducks have Webbed feet...

~We are hiking mount everest

We got back our papers for the past two days... I can't stand intensive Mother Toungue Programme...

Science (Phyiscs)

Elementary Mathematics

Combined Humans

Higher Malay

Fucking Foul (F)ood

I am in a tripple F right now... Ok its actually Fucking Foul Mood... I Don't know... Milo has been missing for the past 6 days on friendster... And i just want to have my time alon from you guys... If possible only with MILO ok... please...

ADIK WHERE ARE YOU

Adik It's been exactly 3 days since you've been gone... Where have you been??? So much for "Don't Worry K bang Milo will always be here for you" you said with such confidence and courage... I have waited for you to come online for the past three days... I sent emails to you but was rejected... I really don't have any other way to contact you dik... I am really worried for you... i got somethings to share... so please... if by anychance you read this post... call my Hand Phone number...

I don't know why but i just feel like going to the RUNWAY today... Weird can.... Ok my food poisoning is getting worse... just now during physics cant even think due to the excruciating pain... Then after both papers stayed for a while to study chemistry...

WORD of the day:

fuck + hard = FARD

Bad Day / De Ja Vu

I guess these two songs can roughly descride today...

Elective Geography is ok i guess... Managed to answer 1 part of a question from section A and another from scetion B... Guess i am just screwed...

Biology Paper 2 was a killer... All those things that i could rember well was not tested...

Question of the day:

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS A CHIASMATA...

So Biology ended 5 minutes after Literature and 15 minutes earlier then D&T... So had to Wait for miss Skunk for 15 minutes... Then went to Aiport to mug... But end up we were bonkers...

Statement of the day:

THE BETTER PLACE TO EMO IS STILL THE RUNWAY...

Went to meet Alcie and Jillyn... To _________.... And then went to Swimming... My timming IMPROVED.... then went to eat....

HERE IS THE DE JA VU PART...

Last week Tesha lost her money.... This week Jillyn lost hers.... Now me, Alcie and Jillyn are having food poisoning... sheesh

Third Day Of MYE

I can't believe that it is now the third day of my Mid Year Exams.. This means that i am also three days closer to the big O... (Ok that was kinda lame...) haha...

Friday (020508)

English Paper 1 & 2...

Was ok i think... Managed to do... In fact i kinda feel good... Then after that went home... haha...

Monday (050508)

Higher Malay Paper 1 & 2...

I did the first section cinfidently... But i think i toatally screwed up my Section 2...

Paper 2 was ok... especially ringkasan and peribahasa...

joke of the day:

a new peribahase was formed...

kail sejengkal umpan seekor, jangan lautan hendak diduga...

seetoopidness.....

Today (060508)...

Social Studies and Elementary Mathematics Paper 1...

SS was ok i guess... Managed to finish up the SBQ but my SEQ was total crapness...

EMATH was better... did everything and happy... then went to study at library with skunk and mr skunk... I WAS FREEZING.... Then left at 4 went to airport to continue mugging with NAWAWI... THANKS DUDE.. made a new friend... going to sleep now and shall wake up at 4 just to study....

ciaos~~ 

Love Is In The Air... Abangs <3 Adiks

Adik i love you very much... Let this picture reminds you of our conversation

Been very busy mugging... But managed to find time to post...

Wednesday (300408)...

My first ever Biology 'O' Lvel Science Practical Assesment (SPA) was held today... Was freaking nervous for the whole day... My feet was like really vibrating on its own sia... Was ok i think... But i think i screwed it up... Cause i took an average reading which i doubt i am supposed to... Haix... Then after that had Science (Chemistry) consultations... Was not really myself... Then went home to change for Life Saving class... After that went to eat at KFC... Then Tesha went down after her work... She looked and sounded pissed... Haix whatever... Then went to CS and TM... Saw that NINGNANA... and was humiliated in front of everyone in public... So the whatever... Then went home and chatted with Adik...

Thursday (010508)...

Went to  Johore... Cut my hair like OMG... Its uber short now... haha... then went to 

Tebrau City (Jusco)... 

I bought new clothes from

Sub Zero Jeans

totals up to 300++ ringgits... 

Ate at secret recipe... 

then met these scotland ladies and helped them out...

Then ate alot today... Reached home that night and i called Adik... very sweet adik... haha i love you too... haha dont worry k... abang will always be here for you even if you were to be caught...

some overdue pics.....