Each second that past by reminds me of how much i love you... i know that we can never be happy... but for all i care i will love you forever. dear i will not let you go cause i am afraid to loose you....

I guess the pressure to attain eight distinction has reached it's zenith today... I don't know why but i just felt like studying and doing nothing else... Not even to eat... Ok I know its not good to skip meals and such but i just want to stay at the table with all my study materials spread out.

Finally i am starting to get the hang of Additional Mathematics. In fact Additional Mathematics is now one of my favourite subjects. I should keep up my good effort and improve more in it...

I managed to edit some of the pictures taken... anyway i am only gonna post some pictures... sorry syiqin but i have to post this...

TAG REPLY:

UDER:

Hei Uder thanks... Ya I miss you guys alots too... But I think the only time we can meet would be after April... Cause only then will our CCA's cease (Mama's idea)... Anyway... Don't shout so loud in school la... I cant sleep at home TAU... Study also cannot... SHEESH

KHAIRIN:

Eh what only you... it's not EMO ok... It's just reminiscing the past... Haha... Thanks for congratulating me... and try your best in Amaths ok... GAMBATTE...

Ok so i am at Changi Airport right now... With the DINKS clique... Say only want to study... total BULL man... haha.... Ok so i am still happy (or shall i say ELATED) about yesterday's result... haha... seriously la seyh... i cant believe that i can actually achieved that A2 of mine... haha... B3 was the minimum that i was dreaming of man... haha... ok now back to study... blog again at home...

i have actually achieved what i have dreamed for........

AN A 2 for my malay O level paper.... Distinction for ORAL...... i am sooooo HAPPY........

well i guess i just have to say that i give about everything. how annoying can this get man. or how worst can the situation get. i just let go of her and now i am regretting every single second of it. whatever la. as long as i can see her smile i guess. but that smile... it hurts. i cant stand it. its like a pepper causing my eyes to tear. all this while i have been waiting and now i am just letting it drift away. man i should seriously move on. but its hard especially when you know this particular person since primary school. P5... that was the first time i ever felt it. but i just ignored it... cause to me that feeling is a joke. months past and i totally forgot about you. then when we got into secondary school i met you again. we got to know each other much better only last year. now the feeling for you is so strong that it could even overthrow someone who i loved so much since P6. whatever it is, i must let go of you. cause i know you won't be happy with me. whats the point of being together if you are sad?

sad and lonely... dang such an emo post. but i guess i should let it all out then to keep it in my heart. MIA has been busy this few days... even with that call away makes her seem to be on another planet. i cant seem to be able to get her to pour all my heart's contents out.

i simply give up and everything!!!

I can now oficially call myself DEAD. it is like only the third week of school and i can feel the pressure mounting which will kill me soon. alot to update on the blog but i have no time. plane loads of homework to be done. i don't even have time for her. but then who cares about her? as in i am not being evil or anything. but i don't think that there is a future in it. she looks gloomy everyday. so i might as well let go of her and see her happy face shine again. at the same time i am allowing another soul try his luck to pursue her. haix. i am gonna miss you.

ok so i shall just update on what has happened recently that is important that is. ok so where shall i start. ok i think i know.

last week

ok so basically nothing special happened. the only thing that i find important was the poly open houses.

TP - 100108 to 120108

SP - 100108 to 120108

NYP - 100108 to 120108

ok so we went to SP immediately after school on Friday.

but for TP and NYP, they did not ask me along. so i went with USU. and they all thought she is my girl. hello i got better taste. any was very pissed la. cause we only bumped into each other at TP. and they all pretended not to know me. well so the whatever.

then don't know what happened.

Tuesday had PE. Mr S** thought us how to run and stuff. lets just skip that. i injurede my back again. and thanks to kok, who bend my knees and causiong me to fall hurting my back even more. then yesterday swimming push myself uber hard. manage to stay within the time limit but second event got an uber bad leg cramp till i cry. then the most embarassing thing is two of my junior was there. and they saw everything. haha. so now my leg is uber painful.

ok so today had a total of three test...

Additional Mathematics

Elementary Mathematics

Science (Chemistry)

so tired...

ok so tomorrow will be going to NP with Them....

Heys Peeps.....

Second day of Secondary 4 life just passed......

A happy sec 4 life today... did something which i didn't know i could do... i sent her home...

i just had the feelings something good is gonna happen today.... so after school went to atrium...

for HML but cikgu totally forgot about it..... so ended up she canceled the whole lesson.... so since Iry was there...... i asked her Shyieka, Nat, Raihan, Syerah go bubble tea shop... but end up Nat, me, her and Shyieka only went... but Shyieka went home early... Nat had band... so left me and her.... then she haas to go her tuition center. i followed her since i have tuition near that place... after which i sent her home to her lift..... haha....... was uber happy..........

Hey peeps....

Today is the second of January which also means that School has officially started. So my sec 4 life has officially started and in fact a day has just gone by. Well as usual me and Diy will always be the crazy ones amongst the five in 4F... We were like Uncivilised Morons... haha...and today Diy had a lot of strike and Syiq has 3 strikes. My someone special seems to be different today..... She is like not talking or anything... It makes me feel bad... haix..