AFTERMATH

Today, Thursday, 21082008, marks the day where i made improvement in a lot of my failing subjects. Improvements, improvements, thats all i have been telling myself. But whats the point of having improvements if it does not result in a pass. I know that there is that malay saying that goes something like 'little-little, long long become hill {direct translation from ' sikit-sikit, lama lama jadi bukit'}. But how do they know how depressing it is to be getting the same grades each time...

Results according to order of paper reiceved:

Humanities {SS/GEO.E}            13+8+12+3=36/100   -----F9

Additional Mathematics             13+24+12=49/180     ----- F9

Pure Biology                                 26.5+8.5+21=56/120  -----E8

English                                           17+13+22+27=52/100 ----C6

so how badly i did... haix...

its all about love

I had lost my faith in LOVE,

Tonight i believe again.

My Heart was a broken piece,

now i feel WHOLE again.

Today is the first mass checking day. I am really glad that my Humans had improved even if it was still a fail. But i am not quite sure how am i gonna disclose this news to my dad. He for sure would go mad and starts scolding me. But all i care is that i have improved. All i need to do now is to work even harder and who knows maybe i could even get a distinction.

Tomorrow is gonna be our career guidance seminar. We have to come to school in office wear... ooo i cant wait.

When life seem to be against you, all you feel like doing would be to run away to a place where you can stay there alone with no one around to even talk to you. I know its gonna be boring but at least i will be safe from all those backstabbing and i would not have to be always prepared for heartbreaks or the sadness of losing someone you trusted.

Oh what the hell is wrong with me why am i feeling this way. I just feel so plastic these days. I pretend to look happy and thing like that in school. Am i doing the right thing? How long am i gonna hide my true feelings from the surface man? I guess i am getting better in hiding my true feelings from everyone. But thinking back at the end of every night i feel that i am not only hiding from them but also hurting myself.

Why is it so? Why am i like losing friends after another. Is it because of my own character or is it just because i am not a good friend?

If this continues to go on i dont think i can handle it..