Saturday, 30 January 2010
Wednesday, 20 January 2010
Maybe I should not have said that 2010 is starting to kick off great in my previous post... I admit it hasn't been... Ok maybe I have high hopes on myself like how much I want to be in committee next year. I just realized that that might not come true due to my own attitude and such.
After I talked to J senior last Tuesday, I did a really deep reflection. I guess it’s true what my friends had said about me changing, emotionally, character, practically everything. I am no longer that someone who used to be thinking about how others feel. I no longer think before I do anything. It really sucks to know that you have change, not for the better, but for the worst. So I told myself that I would change. Someone who does not show his true feelings to the world; a facade that I have yet to build.
So I thought that after that night I have already set my resolutions straight and that I have already decided to be strong. It turns out to be that I expected too much out of myself. I was super disappointed when you guys just.....
This early morning rain really made me decide that this shall be the last. I am really going to put a stronger front. I am going to stand strong on my decision.
A butterfly after a cocoon; a rainbow after a storm; spring after winter; everything has a new form...