Ola, this escape right here really is a forgotten orphan. Only coming back to occasionally update a brief executive summary and then disappearing into the abyss of life. Let's hope this time I really do stick to penning down my thoughts, expressions and experiences. Just for the sake of keeping track of the tripping moments and when or what causes it, though the very first guess i had was that it, as in the lapses, would not have affected us much longer or much worse.
So bringing you up to speed, I reconnected with this Knight in shining armour back in late July, or was it mid August, (funny story, looking back at past chat, one of us did say something about how foggy the memory is, even at such an early stage of getting to know each other). He was serving his notice for resignation and I was still working with SHOUT.
Side track abit,
Boy that morning felt so good! Typing this out, I'm totally reliving and replaying the scene of that sexy specimen lying there or riding me.
Somehow there was that feeling of longing and jealousy in me when I had to leave for work. Like the moment I had to go, I had that intuition of wanting to ask him for more not in the slutty and greedy way of wanting more of him, but like in terms of his attention, his voice and just him as a being.
(Shall leave out another TMI moment that happens during the second time we met.)
So as much as I pretended to act cool and innocent at the same time. The more I met/spend time with him, even just through that few chats, the more I crave and want him. Like that gut feeling pressing on your poo poo telling me that somehow a different me from some cloning factory is meant to have him. Things developed and soon notice served and the next hurdle was his Singapore renunciation process and him returning back to KUL.
Hhhmmm if no one really reads or knows of this existence, maybe I could really pen down everything and maybe even put some clips up for me to walk down memory lane, especially when things do get rough, like these few weeks.
I should probably take a pause in this novel and do something lighter like offloading my thoughts and emotions and words and harmful ideas and confusion and random sensations. But maybe for another day.
