Love Is In The Air... Abangs <3 Adiks

Adik i love you very much... Let this picture reminds you of our conversation

Been very busy mugging... But managed to find time to post...

Wednesday (300408)...

My first ever Biology 'O' Lvel Science Practical Assesment (SPA) was held today... Was freaking nervous for the whole day... My feet was like really vibrating on its own sia... Was ok i think... But i think i screwed it up... Cause i took an average reading which i doubt i am supposed to... Haix... Then after that had Science (Chemistry) consultations... Was not really myself... Then went home to change for Life Saving class... After that went to eat at KFC... Then Tesha went down after her work... She looked and sounded pissed... Haix whatever... Then went to CS and TM... Saw that NINGNANA... and was humiliated in front of everyone in public... So the whatever... Then went home and chatted with Adik...

Thursday (010508)...

Went to  Johore... Cut my hair like OMG... Its uber short now... haha... then went to 

Tebrau City (Jusco)... 

I bought new clothes from

Sub Zero Jeans

totals up to 300++ ringgits... 

Ate at secret recipe... 

then met these scotland ladies and helped them out...

Then ate alot today... Reached home that night and i called Adik... very sweet adik... haha i love you too... haha dont worry k... abang will always be here for you even if you were to be caught...

some overdue pics.....

Why is it so??? Whats wrong with you??? I was trying my best just to help you out in your previous relationship... You then found yourself a new partner... All i wanted to do was to congratulate you... And that is  how you say your thanks to me... For your Bloody Selfish Mind of your's info, i do not have the feeling for you anymore... I am lucky that it was just a infatuation...

"was quarreling with a mother fucker in MSN!!" 

wow so now i am a mother fucker... seriously thanks alot ok SU... and in case you think that i cant live without you, you are so blooddy wrong... in fact i regretted saying sorry to you the other time...

Haix... i just feel that i can't wait for O's to be over... it's like the teachers are all beyond my level of patience... how could she call my dad and put words in other people's mouth... i have never and  will never go up to her and ask her whether is it possible for me to go for time management counselling thing... HELLO get a life bitch... i so did not do that...

she came to the Chemistry lab on thursday scolding us saying that if we do not hand in her work by five she would teach us without any expression the followinbg week.. firstly all i got to say for you is that do you even have any exprssion on that face???

will i thought bakc and maybe because of the class i should just do it... i did and ended up was uber late for Bio remedial... FUCK...

sheesh

anyway... cant wait for Wednesday, 230408... can go home late... yippee...

Look guys i am so sorry... I actually wanted to tell all of you at one time just now... But it seems like my last time in your clique was not a complete one... But i just want you all to know that i appreciate every single second i spent with you guys or shall i say girls...

Thanks for the birthday surprise that we had at the void deck... i was really touched by the fact that you all do care...

i am sorry if i have done anythiong wrong to you guys... i know that i have done loads of wrongdoings so plesae forgive me... halalkan makan minum maafkan segala kasar bahasa...

i am uncomfartable with you guys these days... anyway kan tak sopan for a guys going out with a group of girls... what would people think... so ya... i would continue to be friends but not as close as last time ok....

I have never thought that i would be this hurt... Once again i am gonna thank you for being there when i needed you back then...

To Zejiang... i am so sorry my friend i did not mean to be so harsh... please forgive me and talk to me again...

To the DRINSS i guess this is the goodbye... cause from now on... i shall distant myself from you guys... what would people think right... a guy with a bunch of girls... so ya... thanks for all the good and bad times together... you guys are really appreciated....

To my friends that does read my blog and does not want it to be so emo i am sorry cause i cant keep that promise... 

i wonder why is it that every time i get into a relationship it won't last long.. sad to say i am FUCKING jealous of you guys man... Syiqin what a stable and happy relationship you have... Diy your boyfriend is really sweet to you...

Fuck la... Am i really being over-possessive towards you? What you expect.. i love you alot... Me being sensitive towards trivial matters... what you expect... at least i have a heart and really care for things... about the family thing well hello its not like i have ever experienced it before la ok... its like the first time... i needed you to listen.

in the early days of our relationship you said that you will be here for me to LISTEN OUT... BUT THIS IS THE ENDING???

KNOW YOU ARE PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME??? HELLO I DID ASK YOU WHETHER YOU ARE OK??? BUT ALL YOUR ANSWER WAS YES.. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO READ YOUR  mind... 

FUCK LA

I finally found time to update again... I am super exhausted right now... Due to the fact that today is my first day ever working...

Woke up at 5 feeling excited... Got ready and all.. Then walked all the way to the interchange... Met Jilin at the toilet... Kee Chin was late... Then took 29.. I was actually shock you know... Theresha say that the work is at Sentosa... Then this morning when i was on my way there Jilin say taking 29 i was like so shock... So we took 29 and i was very high on the bus...

"Hello may i know your name..."

"Joshua"

"Ok thanks"

[Hang up & call again]

"Hello may i speak to Joshua please"

Lame la can... Haha... Then we alighted at Aloha Chalet... Walked for 1 hour in search of something that goes like SIA beach club or SAF beach club... Called Theresha over and over again... But apparently her phone was switched off... Then tried calling the organizer himself... but once again his phone was switched off... Then finally Theresha called to tell us the exact location which was at Upper Changi Road East... so far lor...

Cabbed our way there... Was given a red event crew shirt... And was only given 5 minutes to change and all that... Then we were designated to our works.. Jilin, Yong Seng, Kee Chin and Derren was down for game stalls... While me, Jia Shun and Jacky was down for the telematch... Very tiring ok...

Will tell more next time... Then when the event is over, we had to hand over the shirts... Like what the fuck can... haha... Then the pay was given went to eat and now here i am... and i am off to sleep le...

I am on the verge of killing myself right now... I seriously think that all this while i have been living in a happy peacful family would not turn out like this...

I was asked to leave the house man... how can... haix what ever la....

at least i have you ok...

From me:

"Hey... I just wanted to tell you that you mean alot to me... You have been stuck in my heart since the first time we met... And i cant seem to get you out.. Each day i would be thinking of you and wonder whether you would be doing the same thing to... Believe me my angel that you mean a thousand and one things to me...

YOU ARE THE SECOND THAT MADE UP MY DAY... YOU ARE THE OXYGEN THAT I BREATH EACH DAY... YOU ARE THE SIGHT THA I SEE EACH HOUR...YOU ARE THE SOUND THAT I HEAR EACH MINUTE... YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE TO PROVIDE ME WARMTH... YOU ARE THE RAIN THAT WITNESS MYEMONESS... YOU ARE THE ROOF THAT I SEEK SHELTER IN... YOU ARE THE SHOULDER THAT I CARY AND RELY ON... YOU ARE MY FRIEND THAT I LOVE AND CARE.."

From Someone:

"OOPS DID I.. SRY.. I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU FOREVER. MY LOVE FOR YOU IS AS DEEP AS THE OCEAN AND AS BIG AS THE UNIVERSE.."

"HEY DUN CRY.. IT HURTS ME TO SEE YOU CRY.."

SO SWEET RIGHT...

Well at least i can always look back at this to cheer me up...

The past two days have been an emo one for me... The fact that my fever is uber high and that its been lingering for the past few days is one of the factor that adds up to the Emoness... Went to school yesterday morning for Chemistry and after which went to Food culture to eat... Like finally... I have been dying to eat at food culture with them... Then thats when i started to turn emo at first... Last minute say tuition at 12.30... I did not even bring my books la can... Then the time then was like 11.45... haix... So went to library to 'study' everyone left and i met Along... Then we went up and i saw Pras... Then Uder came and we head off to Changi Airport T2 to meet Usu... in the bus something setoopid happened between Along and Uder... Haha...

*skip*

Then went to Mac to eat... and sat there till 5 plus just to decide where to go... Then WEnt to Pasir Ris Beach to EMO...

AND THANKS TO THAT SESSION I HAVE BEEN EMOING SINCE THEN CAUSE MY FEVER IS GETTING WORSE AND I WAS SUDDENLY HIT BY THAT FUCKING PANG OF NOSTALGIA.... EMOING RIGHT NOW...

Haix... What a life... how can i fall sick and get this fucking DANG high fever just a week before my Common Test (CT) and My birthday...

Yesterday in school i already felt unwell... But i had that Podcast Competition meeting... So i attended... Went for Life Guard Course and i was having a very bad headache... i just went into the water and continued the routine... Not telling anyone... Thought that it was just a normal Headache... Then after the first timing, i suddenly felt uber cold, neasous and felt like blacking out... but i still continued to keep quiet cause like almost every week got something happen to me de...  i just sat by the pool side in the HELP (Heat Escape Lessening Posture) then my instructor asked whether i was ok... all i could do was to make a sound... Then after that he wanted to do this lap timing thing... Swim 50 meters within 1 minute... For 5 Laps... So i just sat at the side again this time i was shivering like mad... Only God knows how i felt then... it was like uber cold... and my head was spinning... Then when everything ended and when i got home and took my temperature... It was as high as 38.9 degrees celcius... haix

I finally found time to post pictures that thesha so wanted... Ok i shall not delay the moment and post the pictures first before i carry on with my blog...

Had a hell of a time yesterday... At least i managed to forget about all my problems...

Had tuition in the morning... Then after which rushed home to change to the proper dressing for weddings... Pink Fox long sleeved shirt and Black sleeveles shirt... Then went out and took MRT all the way to Queenstown... After which flag a cab to the place and it only cost 3 bucks... so ate and waited for the bride... So long sia... and soon i was late for the outing...

Reached Raffles City at 6.45 and i was officially late for 15 minutes... Hey it wasnt my fault ok... My mum asked me to wait to meet my cousin who was geeting married... Like i care like that...

So we first went to this candy shop where Theresha (Tesha) friend bought this lollies which was sour... haha... We then went to Starbucks to wait for Jie Kun and camwhored like fuck there man....

Only after we finished that delicious scone did Jie Kun arrived... And the stupid plan to DAO JK was ruined by Tesha who talk to him the moment he stepped into Starbucks... ok maybe i continue next time bah...

BUSY!!!

I have been busy this past few days... So i miss blogging...

Ok so Wednesday 060208 was a half day... Planned to come to school early... But end up i overslept... So went to school like the usual time... Not alot of people wore their ethnic costume... What was more depressing was that only ME, DIY, SYIQ, NAT & YAS  wore the traditional costume... So the first hour or so was a talk by Mrs NEO our lovely Principal... (ok i got to admit i was not really listening cause i was sitting at the benches outside our class trying my best to complete the weekend-nightstudy homework.) So immediately after her presentation, the twinning classes had their so called party... So i was belo in there and was screaming here and there... Trying my utmost best to make HER stressed... So it all ended and we took pictures.. But i am only going to post it next time... So after that took more pictures with ZU, FAATIN, ZIQ... then went to play piano and took more belo pictures... We only left school at about 1030hrs... To go to the airport... then we ate at airport and took neoprints at TM... then went home...

Reach home and cleaned the house immediately... That was the start of my mission... And up till now only my sis room (which is my old room) is completed... its PINK and i painted everything all by myself... yippee... will upload the pics next time....

FUCK ALL OF YOU

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH EVERYBODY??? FUCK MAN... FIRST ITS YOU... CHEATED ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... DIDNT EVEN CARE ABOUT HOW I FELT...SAY ONLY WANT TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND ALL THOSE BULL... BUT END UP HURT ME AND DONT EVEN CARE THAT I WAS CRYING AT THAT SMALL LITTLE CORNER...

THEN ANOTHER PROBLEM SURFACES... BLOODY FAITH... I AM SO SORRY BUT LOOKS LIKE ITS GONNA BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO RESPECT YOU ANYMORE... SO DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TRY TO ASK ME TO DO SO...  OOPS I AM SORRY I FORGOT YOU ARE MY FORM TEACHER AND CCA TEACHER... OH YA AND BY THE WAY STOP GIVING ME EMPTY PROMISES... IN FACT DONT EVEN MAKE PROMISES... CUASE I AM FUCKING SURE THAT YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO LIVE UP TO YOUR DUTIES... SAY EVERYONE MUST STAY BACK TO DO CLASS DECO... BUT DID YOU DO YOUR DUTY TO ENSURE THAT EVERYONE TURNS UP... HUH... NO... IN CASE YOU DIDN'T KNOW ONLY A SMALL GROUP OF THEM STAYED BACK AT FIRST... THEY ONLY STAYED TO PLAY TWISTER GAME THEN WENT HOME AFTER KAREN FINSIHED PASTING THAT DISGUSTING CLASS MOTO OF OURS... OK I GOT TO ADMIT THAT I WAS ALSO ONE OF THOSE WHO PLAYED TWISTER... BUT AT LEAST AFTER PLAYING THAT GAME I STAYED ON TO DO THE CLASS DECO...

WHAT BULLSHIT IS THAT HUH? ONLY SCOLDED JY SO LIGHTLY... ITS SUCH AN OBVIOUS SHOW OF FAVOURATISM LA... JOKE WITH JY SO THAT HE SHUT UP.... AND HE WAS LIKE TALKING SO LOUDLY... WHEN ITS ME WHAT YOU DID???? SCOLD ME AND MAKE A BIG FUSS OUT OF IT... WHAT WANT TO DEDUCT MARKS FROM MY ORAL AND ESSAY.... GO RIGHT AHEAD I DONT GIVE A DAMN.... YOU HAPPY RIGHT... ANYWAY MY O LEVELS SCRIPT WON'T EVEN BE MARKED BY YOU... IN FACT YOU WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO AMMEND IT... I WAS JUST SITTING THERE MOUTHING MY SCRIPT... NO SQUEK CAME OUT... AND A HELL OF A SCOLDING WAS WHAT I GOT... PLEASE NOT EVERYONE CAN ENDURE YOUR SHIT LA...

BANG THE DOOR SOMEMORE LA... YOU MIGHT AS JOLLY WELL BREAK THAT FUCKING DAMN DOOR... DONT CARE ABOUT MY PHONE... WELL FINE IF I THROW IT OUT OF THE WINDOW DONT YOU DARE SCOLD ME... I SAID THAT CAUSE ITS THE TRUTH... I DID NOT SAY THAT I DIDNT ALLOW YOU TO BRING... I ONLY SAY YOU WILL READ MY SMSES... WHICH IS THE WHOLE FUCKING TRUTH... AND YOU KNOW THAT THE FUCKING TRUTH FUCKING HURTS... THEN COMPLAINT HERE COMPLAINT THERE... AND SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT ME... FUCK YOU LA... WHEN ADK GOT LOST IN T3 WHAT YOU DID??? YOU ONLY BLAME IT ALL ON ME... WHAT WERE YOU DOING HUH??? LOOKING FOR PRESENT AND DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME OR HER... THEN WHEN IO TOLD YOU THAT SHE WAS MISSING YOU CONTINUED TO HOLD THAT BAG... HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT MYSELF THAT SHE WAS MISSING FOUR FIVE SIX... OR DO YOU WANT TO WAIT FOR ME TO SHOUT IT ALL OUT LOUD THAT SHE IS FUCKING MISSING THEN YOU WILL THROW THAT FUCKING BAG DOWN TO SEARCH... WELL HELLO I WAS NOT TRYING TO ACT COOL, OR HANDSOME LA PLEASE.... WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS TRYING TO ACT PRETTY... DOES NOT EVEN WANT TO CARRY THINGS NOW HOW TO SCHOOL... EVEN CARRY ADK ALSO CANNOT.... MAN FUCK YOU ALSO LA...

THANKS ALOT LA... I KNOW YOU DID ALOT TO HELP ME IMPROVE MY GRADES... BUT YOU DONT HAVE TO SCOLD US RIGHT... IF YOU DONT WANT TO TREAT US THEN DONT... IF ITS NOT SINCERE I WOULD DEFFINITELY NOT WANT TO EAT IT LA... ITS HARAM OK... AND I DONT WANT TO EAT HARAM FOOD... IF YOU HATE OUR CLASS SO MUCH THEN YOU MIGHT AS WELL TELL MRS NEO THAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE CLASS... IF I WERE TO DO THAT YOU SAY I AM TRYING TO SMEAR YOUR BLODDY REPUTATION... WELL HELLO IT WAS THE BLOODY TRUTH... SO ADMIT THAT DAMN FACT...

HOW I WISH I COULD JUST DROP DOWN AND DIE NOW.....

I Will Never Respect You Again

Ok i have decided that i am not gonna blog about my sister getting lost in Changi Airport Terminal 3... Instead i am gonna talk about how i am feeling right now... Stress, Lonely, Hatred... Ah basically everything la... Pissed here and there... The whole day was ruined when she told me that i can't be an emcee for the Musical Extravaganza to be held on 21 March cause i can't cope with my studies... What the hell can... Diy, Nat, Kar, Mich, Ily, Asy, Za, Ald and alot more people can perform... Which would definitely talk a lot more time and yet they are allowed to perform... What about me... Being an emcee is not that time consuming what... You threatened Diy that you would pull her out if she does not come for String training... But i am not even allowed to be the emcee... We should all be treated the same way what... All of us are taking O's at the end of this year TOGETHER...

Things worsen during Maths period when a test - which was supposed to be conducted on 11/2- was held... Mr T was absent today but don't know how Mr W came with test papers and asking us to do... whatever la hor... 

Then English i was scolded just for preparing my own Oral speach presentation... Like what the hell... I did not even make a SQUEK... And yet she scolded me as if i was making some sort of a commotion... Then at the back of the class... JY who was talking and laughing so loudly she just brush it off by saying... "people at the back please listen..." over and over again... What is this... such obvious favouritism...

"everyone is suposed to stay back after school to decorate the class..." but end up only ME, Syiq, Diy and Nat was the only one who stayed over to complete the remaining part of the deco...

I HATE YOU AND I WOULD DEFINITELY NOT RESPECT YOU ANYMORE!!!